[FM] May - Near Death
I can't exactly consider it near death. I was shot... to death, but that was just for television. I stood there waiting for the blood packets to burst, the small points of pressure popping in sequence against my skin. It took a week of training to get used to the feeling, and to make sure I didn't flinch before it was supposed to go off. Two days of rigging me, which normally would only take a day, but since I wasn't wearing too much? They eventually had to go with the white trench coat. Of course I pointed out how cliche it was of them, to put me in white. Most everyone in Hollywood, or even the world knows you put someone in all white they're bound to either get dirty, bloody, or have someone else die in their arms. It's a given, plus it films really well.
The fans of the show as me all the time, "How do you feel knowing that you're character was killed off in such a climactic manner? Do you think it was fitting?"
I can't even begin to answer it most times. My character was a plot point, someone to come in and move the story along without getting in the way of the other central cast. I was meant to die, it's how it goes. Another one of those Hollywood standards I guess. So I smile at whoever has asked me and I feed them the standard line. All talking about the experience, and being happy with the way the writers handled it all. I mention the joy it was working with such an amazing cast and crew, and how dedicated they all are to their craft. I toss in a bit of a wistful expression, proving that I really am an actress, and I say that if things had been different I would have loved to stay on board, but the way things work in this town there's always something else coming along. Then I'll drop a mention of a new pilot I'm up for, or a role I am rumored to get.
After everything I've learned, and seen around here? I know anything is possible.
- Nikki Fernandez
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If I had boarded that plane, if I had gone with Paulo... if I hadn't gotten scared at the last minute? Hadn't spotted that Marshall and questioned exactly why he was there in the first place? I might have been one of the lists of non-survivors... the crash made the news, but the rescue... made headlines. So far they haven't released many names, but the one that stood out to me, even more than the lack of Paulo's... was Sawyer. I knew the name, and hearing where he was from? I knew.
I won't be booking many interviews these days, but then again no one ever got their career launched following a con man around Vegas. Well maybe Anna Nicole... but look what that did.
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The fans of the show as me all the time, "How do you feel knowing that you're character was killed off in such a climactic manner? Do you think it was fitting?"
I can't even begin to answer it most times. My character was a plot point, someone to come in and move the story along without getting in the way of the other central cast. I was meant to die, it's how it goes. Another one of those Hollywood standards I guess. So I smile at whoever has asked me and I feed them the standard line. All talking about the experience, and being happy with the way the writers handled it all. I mention the joy it was working with such an amazing cast and crew, and how dedicated they all are to their craft. I toss in a bit of a wistful expression, proving that I really am an actress, and I say that if things had been different I would have loved to stay on board, but the way things work in this town there's always something else coming along. Then I'll drop a mention of a new pilot I'm up for, or a role I am rumored to get.
After everything I've learned, and seen around here? I know anything is possible.
- Nikki Fernandez
[private notation]
If I had boarded that plane, if I had gone with Paulo... if I hadn't gotten scared at the last minute? Hadn't spotted that Marshall and questioned exactly why he was there in the first place? I might have been one of the lists of non-survivors... the crash made the news, but the rescue... made headlines. So far they haven't released many names, but the one that stood out to me, even more than the lack of Paulo's... was Sawyer. I knew the name, and hearing where he was from? I knew.
I won't be booking many interviews these days, but then again no one ever got their career launched following a con man around Vegas. Well maybe Anna Nicole... but look what that did.
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