Do you think we're gonna make it?
Hey guys, it's been a while.
I almost don't know what to say.
I've been trying to find other ways to feel better, not realying on you all as much as before. It's not that I don't love you guys to death, it's just that I need to learn to fight shit on my own. You aren't always there to pick me up and take me away for a few hours or let me sleep at your houses or listen to me cry. So what have I been doing, you ask?
Dowloading good music
Throwing myself into my art
Trying to do school
Seeing my old friends
Writing, for fun
Cooking, as always
It's mostly working. ^^ Ish.
I'm working on a bunch of different art pieces. I'm drawing Jessica and Adam on Tuesday. If I don't reach Kiff by then, my mom'll have to take me over there. My piece of Minnie is being considered for All State already, I'm so happy. Wheel (pottery) at the Civic Center started up again, and I've already made some good stuff; God I missed pottery.
I want to make presents for people, keep myself busy. Because when you're doing something good to forget the crumbling all around you, it's okay. I'm forgetting the pain, the stuff I can't change. It's there, like an itchy little sore in the back of my mind, and sometimes it's worse and sometimes its not, but at least it's not comsuming me any more. I'm getting (slowly) better at this.
Call, IM, or come see me dolls.
PS: I'm making dinner again tomorrow. Homemade lasagne, totally from scratch. Kiffer and Kieth can testify to its deliciousness. Call if you want to stop by and eat or just chill.
I almost don't know what to say.
I've been trying to find other ways to feel better, not realying on you all as much as before. It's not that I don't love you guys to death, it's just that I need to learn to fight shit on my own. You aren't always there to pick me up and take me away for a few hours or let me sleep at your houses or listen to me cry. So what have I been doing, you ask?
Dowloading good music
Throwing myself into my art
Trying to do school
Seeing my old friends
Writing, for fun
Cooking, as always
It's mostly working. ^^ Ish.
I'm working on a bunch of different art pieces. I'm drawing Jessica and Adam on Tuesday. If I don't reach Kiff by then, my mom'll have to take me over there. My piece of Minnie is being considered for All State already, I'm so happy. Wheel (pottery) at the Civic Center started up again, and I've already made some good stuff; God I missed pottery.
I want to make presents for people, keep myself busy. Because when you're doing something good to forget the crumbling all around you, it's okay. I'm forgetting the pain, the stuff I can't change. It's there, like an itchy little sore in the back of my mind, and sometimes it's worse and sometimes its not, but at least it's not comsuming me any more. I'm getting (slowly) better at this.
Call, IM, or come see me dolls.
PS: I'm making dinner again tomorrow. Homemade lasagne, totally from scratch. Kiffer and Kieth can testify to its deliciousness. Call if you want to stop by and eat or just chill.