Life
Some one once told me that a journal is a personal thing. So I have had thoughts going through my head as of late and its kinda hard to make something of them so I am going to just write some things down in this little entry and people can get back to me if they want to no matter what it is they feel by this.
First off I'd like to say I am sorry to steve. Steve, from the first time we actually talked in baseball conditioning back sophomore year I always thought you were a cool person. You are out going and whenever we hang you always have a smile on your face. No matter what has happened you have always been there for me. Even when Carrie had broken up with me and I thought she was going to want to be with you....You helped me through those times. Emotions aside, I hope that we do not ever loose touch because that would be one hell of a loss. But I need to be up front, I am jealous that you and Carrie are such good friends and it eats at me at times. I know you guys are good friends and I am not getting in the middle of that. But i just wanted to tell you I am sorry for all that stupid shit i wrote on my last entry.
Carrie, there is no way I can possibly put into words what I feel for you. I know this might scare you but you are everything to me. No my world does not revolve around you but you are a big part of my world. With your intellegance, your peacefulness, your beauty, and your honesty...you are the most beautiful person inside and out that i have ever met. Wether or not you know this, you push me to be the best me every day. The reason I am as successful as I am today is because of you. Although you do irritate me at times I could never see my life with out you in it in some way. I know for a fact that I will never leave you so that means your going to have to leave me lol. But even then I could not see us not being friends ever babe. I love you so much never forget that.
I wish that i had more guy friends that I could actually talk to. Like...adam...engaged and expecting, eric...in florida and is too lazy to get out here. I mean i finaly have some what of guys in here like derek and mundo but i wouldnt even know them without carrie. The only guy at my school i talk to...well he is just a player and is fucking a girl that is in my "click".
In all honesty I do not even feel like writing anymore...i might continue this later or something but I just do not feel like do this. Sorry steve, i love you carrie....end.
First off I'd like to say I am sorry to steve. Steve, from the first time we actually talked in baseball conditioning back sophomore year I always thought you were a cool person. You are out going and whenever we hang you always have a smile on your face. No matter what has happened you have always been there for me. Even when Carrie had broken up with me and I thought she was going to want to be with you....You helped me through those times. Emotions aside, I hope that we do not ever loose touch because that would be one hell of a loss. But I need to be up front, I am jealous that you and Carrie are such good friends and it eats at me at times. I know you guys are good friends and I am not getting in the middle of that. But i just wanted to tell you I am sorry for all that stupid shit i wrote on my last entry.
Carrie, there is no way I can possibly put into words what I feel for you. I know this might scare you but you are everything to me. No my world does not revolve around you but you are a big part of my world. With your intellegance, your peacefulness, your beauty, and your honesty...you are the most beautiful person inside and out that i have ever met. Wether or not you know this, you push me to be the best me every day. The reason I am as successful as I am today is because of you. Although you do irritate me at times I could never see my life with out you in it in some way. I know for a fact that I will never leave you so that means your going to have to leave me lol. But even then I could not see us not being friends ever babe. I love you so much never forget that.
I wish that i had more guy friends that I could actually talk to. Like...adam...engaged and expecting, eric...in florida and is too lazy to get out here. I mean i finaly have some what of guys in here like derek and mundo but i wouldnt even know them without carrie. The only guy at my school i talk to...well he is just a player and is fucking a girl that is in my "click".
In all honesty I do not even feel like writing anymore...i might continue this later or something but I just do not feel like do this. Sorry steve, i love you carrie....end.