The Bad Guy/Girl
I am not a victim nor do I willingly agree to be victimized. I'm a softee until you cross me and then I'm a bitch its just that simple. I respect other people and I expect others to respect me as well. I expect nothing from anything, but if i get something i appreciate it. If I have problems I solve them. My life sucks, but I dont complain as much anymore because really no one wants to hear how you really are. We are trained to ask how are you and stuff like that to be polite. So often we say "I'm good, I'm fine", just out of habit. When you have a problem tell people how you really are and watch the expression on their face, they wont know what to do.
Honestly I have spent a good portion of my time in the past, not so much as now by complaining that i didnt have a relationship or anyone worthy of being a relationship with in my life. To tell you all the truth, I think as much as I wanted it I'm scared. I dont even think I know how to be in a relationship. I'm so used to doing what i want when i want and never having to explain myself, it would be odd to actually have to attend to someones feelings and worry about if I'm being inconsiderate or not a good girlfriend. I mean there was someone I was willing to invest everything in to be with, but I have not found anyone else that I feel would be compatible with me. So..as much as I want it, maybe I'm just not ready at this point. It's just sometimes I get lonely. Oh well. And all your friends say you're great, your pretty your smart you're you're this, you're that you'll find someone eventually. When? when will i even find someone thats mad cool has the same interests in me and isnt some shallow nobody that has shallow interests and someone that im actually attracted to. oh i guess im forgetting the point of this, which is sometimes when "possible" situations come up i get nervous and scared about the possibility of what it could lead to. Lets say i've missed quiete a few opportunities because i was scared or intimidated.
ohhh and a sidenote thats completely unrelated to anything. its funny when you realize people are taking advantage of you and they have the nerve to get mad at you when you stop the behavior immediately. seems pretty assbackwards to me.
Honestly I have spent a good portion of my time in the past, not so much as now by complaining that i didnt have a relationship or anyone worthy of being a relationship with in my life. To tell you all the truth, I think as much as I wanted it I'm scared. I dont even think I know how to be in a relationship. I'm so used to doing what i want when i want and never having to explain myself, it would be odd to actually have to attend to someones feelings and worry about if I'm being inconsiderate or not a good girlfriend. I mean there was someone I was willing to invest everything in to be with, but I have not found anyone else that I feel would be compatible with me. So..as much as I want it, maybe I'm just not ready at this point. It's just sometimes I get lonely. Oh well. And all your friends say you're great, your pretty your smart you're you're this, you're that you'll find someone eventually. When? when will i even find someone thats mad cool has the same interests in me and isnt some shallow nobody that has shallow interests and someone that im actually attracted to. oh i guess im forgetting the point of this, which is sometimes when "possible" situations come up i get nervous and scared about the possibility of what it could lead to. Lets say i've missed quiete a few opportunities because i was scared or intimidated.
ohhh and a sidenote thats completely unrelated to anything. its funny when you realize people are taking advantage of you and they have the nerve to get mad at you when you stop the behavior immediately. seems pretty assbackwards to me.