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k Another update! Yesterday and last night and so far today has been good. I took some xanax yesterday before lab that i had with david so I didn't start to cry AGAIN, and i laughed the whole time. haha I think David and our other lab partner hated me bc I screwed up the lab twice. We had to restart the entire thing twice, but I was alll over the place. I think it was the xanax but I was having fun in lab, I'm finally really getting over David and things are looking up. I felt so sad for him yesterday :( one his friends through Hobie..hobies best friend Gordon, died yesterday. I could tell he didn't want to talk about it but I hope he talks to someone about it, sometimes I really worry about it. Also saw a hickey on his neck yesterday >_< I was hurt at first but then it made me realize that we really ARE broken up. He can do what he wants and I the same (hehe). But I decided yesterday to defriend him from my facebook for a little bit. Like yesterday some girl Rosie posted on it and called him babe and of course all I was jumping to all kinds of crazy conclusions. I figure for now it's best if I don't tempt myself to check his fb. haha...
[edit] Then last night I texted him at like 6 and told him i was defriending him but I guess he didn't get it until later when he was drunk and so was I. We had the most pathetic texting convo because he didn't understand why I had to do it. but he understands now, and fo sho for the best...for now! I really don't want him out of my life ever, I think he's a beautiful person and I have no spite against him.
Today has been a huge improvement. IDK if its just bc its sunny for the first time in weeks or that i had a great night last night! The last 3 times Ive tried to go to the bar since we've broken up had NOT been good..I always ended up crying and miserable, but last night was different. And I think it's because I'm forcing myself to move on and its working!Also after I saw the hickey it made me want to makeout with someone. hehe. I used to love making out with people because it's fun and innocent, and last night reminded me of how much I missed it! And I kind of thought if he made out with someone then I need to to!
So to the bar: Even though I had a chemistry test at 9am today I felt like I really needed a break yesterday. I had been on campus from 7:30am-8pm doing classes, labs, tutors, meetings, and studying. By the time I got home I just told me girls to throw a dress on and we were going to have a fun Tuesday night, and did we ever ;) I met this kid and he was cute and he bought me shots and he's a good kisser hehe I hope he's out tonight because last night was a good kisser and sooo cute! And hes texted me since then last night and it was cute haha I forget the feeling of just having random giggles with a guy you don't know much about. David and I's relationship wasn't like that towards the end.
well that's my life right now, tonight were going to and dressing up, I hope it's not obnoxiously busy at the bar! I think david will probably be out tonight too at the same bar..hope that goes well too. as for now Im in great spirits! i was listening to my new 2009 playlist on my iPod and dancing on the way to class. I've been overly friendly too..haha <3 <3
[edit] Then last night I texted him at like 6 and told him i was defriending him but I guess he didn't get it until later when he was drunk and so was I. We had the most pathetic texting convo because he didn't understand why I had to do it. but he understands now, and fo sho for the best...for now! I really don't want him out of my life ever, I think he's a beautiful person and I have no spite against him.
Today has been a huge improvement. IDK if its just bc its sunny for the first time in weeks or that i had a great night last night! The last 3 times Ive tried to go to the bar since we've broken up had NOT been good..I always ended up crying and miserable, but last night was different. And I think it's because I'm forcing myself to move on and its working!Also after I saw the hickey it made me want to makeout with someone. hehe. I used to love making out with people because it's fun and innocent, and last night reminded me of how much I missed it! And I kind of thought if he made out with someone then I need to to!
So to the bar: Even though I had a chemistry test at 9am today I felt like I really needed a break yesterday. I had been on campus from 7:30am-8pm doing classes, labs, tutors, meetings, and studying. By the time I got home I just told me girls to throw a dress on and we were going to have a fun Tuesday night, and did we ever ;) I met this kid and he was cute and he bought me shots and he's a good kisser hehe I hope he's out tonight because last night was a good kisser and sooo cute! And hes texted me since then last night and it was cute haha I forget the feeling of just having random giggles with a guy you don't know much about. David and I's relationship wasn't like that towards the end.
well that's my life right now, tonight were going to and dressing up, I hope it's not obnoxiously busy at the bar! I think david will probably be out tonight too at the same bar..hope that goes well too. as for now Im in great spirits! i was listening to my new 2009 playlist on my iPod and dancing on the way to class. I've been overly friendly too..haha <3 <3