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I am having a really hard time with the thought of going to my granfathers funeral, part of me doesnt want to go, and i am pretty sure its the part of me that doesnt want to admit he's no longer here. I got an email from my aunt with what to expect for his military burial at arlington cemetary in d.c. and it hit me really hard, i miss him so much, he was so amazing and it is just hard, he was my hero. i just wish it wasnt this hard. but i know it will get easier with time, but the funeral is in 3 weeks, i am just not looking foward to it.