Let me inside
every day i start to believe i am a vampire. my thirst for blood and my yearning to crawl into a coffin. but i live among the undamned. I have come to the conclusion that i will escape this world by hiding in boston and feeding. i am sick of school, my parents, and my life. all i want is someone's blood trickling down the back of my throat. i thrive on cloudy and rainy days and i may not be pale, but i live in the dark mentally and really. To escape this world would be grand and to just to have my latest victim go limp in my arms as i drank their last drop. (take that however you want) i may not be a true vampire, but a human with a thirst and passion for the damned, but i will be happy to taste a wound's excretions and revel in the fear soaked blood. my mind won't stop and it is killing me. i have to read t oforget the torment and the anguish that i feel being alone, but if i'm a vampire then i guess i will need to get used to that feeling. if i don't escape i will take a victim in the school and well i don't know from there what to do with the corpse. Food has become rancid to me and i would rather well you get it.
on to something else. my mind may be chaotic, but it is cleared of one obsession. The one with a teenager, but really a child at heart, and the inescapable hatred/love for him, but it is gone so yeah! Well i hoped it was gone, but really it has been replaced with another, but more interesting and supposedly less shallow person. Let that shallow whore's interest break the law, but what ever gets them happy, but i guess it wouldn't take much to do that since they are both horny sex deprived children(insult). I on the other hand have come to terms with my loneliness and began to take up yoga and fitness. the diversion is working great and i can't wait the fucking year for college. I will be hte biggest slut on campus, but yearning for a deep emotional relationship with a total outcast of society. or a punk, have'nt decided. whatever. really i am not alone i have my friends and the whore, but mostly i have myself and my determination to be a writer and director. a story idea i came up with involves Azraek the angel of death and this college student and they fall in love in this LSD inspired shots about their love and romance untill the student dies and sees azrael's true nature. Depression has started kicking in. movie suggestion: Hey, Happy! one of the greatest movies i have ver seen, it is psychedelic 60s-70s meets soft core gay porn, but they are the same thing right. anyway, if given the choice watch it!
see y'all later. if anyone is out there reading this. Adieu.
on to something else. my mind may be chaotic, but it is cleared of one obsession. The one with a teenager, but really a child at heart, and the inescapable hatred/love for him, but it is gone so yeah! Well i hoped it was gone, but really it has been replaced with another, but more interesting and supposedly less shallow person. Let that shallow whore's interest break the law, but what ever gets them happy, but i guess it wouldn't take much to do that since they are both horny sex deprived children(insult). I on the other hand have come to terms with my loneliness and began to take up yoga and fitness. the diversion is working great and i can't wait the fucking year for college. I will be hte biggest slut on campus, but yearning for a deep emotional relationship with a total outcast of society. or a punk, have'nt decided. whatever. really i am not alone i have my friends and the whore, but mostly i have myself and my determination to be a writer and director. a story idea i came up with involves Azraek the angel of death and this college student and they fall in love in this LSD inspired shots about their love and romance untill the student dies and sees azrael's true nature. Depression has started kicking in. movie suggestion: Hey, Happy! one of the greatest movies i have ver seen, it is psychedelic 60s-70s meets soft core gay porn, but they are the same thing right. anyway, if given the choice watch it!
see y'all later. if anyone is out there reading this. Adieu.