Because I'm done with it and never want my past loyalties it to be quesitoned...
I didn't unfriend you to try to be mean or vindictive or play games. I unfriended you to try to end the heartache that both of us are inflicting on eachother. I am broken-BROKEN and I can't emotionally function anymore AT ALL. To be any use to my kids and my husband, I have to get well-HAVE TO. I'm sick and need help; major, major help. I'm sorry for what you're going through. I'm sorry that your worst fears have seemed to come true and I'm sorry you're having difficulties dealing. I can't imagine what it must feel like for you. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like you needed me to be. I wish things weren't like this. I wish I could've been able to be there for you like the countless times you've been there for me. I wish with all my heart and soul that I could've been YOUR rock, for once. I'm friending you back because I don't wish to cause anymore pain, but I want you to know that I don't expect to be friended back. I just want you to do what makes you happy. I just want you to do what you need to do to begin the process of healing. Emotionally. Physically. Spiritually. I am also posting this publicly in livejournal so it can never be questioned that I don't understand what all you've done for me. I have never taken you for granted and have always been eternally grateful for all you've done. I just don't want to hurt you and don't want you to hurt me anymore. Neither one of us is in any kind of place to be trying to get points across w/o trying to be hurtful. Let's just agree that I wasn't trying to be mean and you thought I was and you weren't trying to be mean and I thought you were. You didn't ditch me, I didn't pack up and leave your life. You didn't hurt Caleb, I did. You need me; I can't be there for you, and I need you; you can't be there for me.