OMG its a public post
I went back to chicago a month ago and it was fantastic too see my old friends again, really was bummed that i missed origins but hey life goes on....
its been over 7 months now that i have left the Camarilla, the only way to describe how it feels is become a drug addict or something else self destructive and then call me when you go on 7 months of sobriety. Give me a call then, well talk. *grins*
Its amazing how much better my quality of life is in Seattle since I have left the cam, i am still rather bitter (thanks to cammies doing too much damage) but like Puppy says, how many of them do you talk to anymore? Yeah he has a point and its time to let go. But its nice hanging out with people who are not into kiddie porn, adultry, and backstabbing. Makes me realize its not really Seattle, just the freaks in the Cam. The more i find myself not thinking of most of them as human (seattle only i might add still think that Portland crew rocks) the better off i am (coop excluded since i keep trying to get up the balls to call him and always fall short)
I definately fell into a new crowd up here, a lot more wild then the cam, but less drama and less backstabbing and less days spent sober so its all kinda even i guess. LOL I cant remember the last time i was sober for a week straight...i dont regret it, its my choices to make. But anything is better then the drama. This is so not a cry for help, its me actually liking my life for once since i moved up here.
Every moment i think of leaving, but its just not looking like its going to happen soon, but at least i am more comfortable with things then i have been in a long time. I miss my friends back home and think its time for me to go back to Tampa again and viva la ybor!
Other then that for those people who still give a damn, i really hope that things are going well for all of you...there have been alot of you that i have wanted to contact but really had nothing to say and i am assuming the feeling is mutal since i dont hear from anybody on here anymore.
Oh for those people who have not heard my darling x husband is about to become a proud papa so if you know him wish him luck. Many of you have heard me say that i dont believe there is a god in seattle, but i have been praying for that baby every night. I wont slander my x on here but many of you know the reasons i walked out on him and i only pray that the baby is safe and stays safe.
Other then that my kits had fleas for the frist time and it almost broke my black little heart...other then that i am kitty sitting this weekend for Rhiow, Bella, Squeeky (aka kiki) and Togs and the evil deamon kitty Waverly. Its in the 90's up here and Waves is expressing her hours of discontent by drawing blood, ironically Bella who is normally the bitchy cat of the house is being all snuggly with me.
Heat does strange things. But for the frist time in Seattle i am comfortable.
This shall last till about 3 pm today
after that i will have a tattoo on my spine
i am enjoying what bits of comfort i can find :)
its been over 7 months now that i have left the Camarilla, the only way to describe how it feels is become a drug addict or something else self destructive and then call me when you go on 7 months of sobriety. Give me a call then, well talk. *grins*
Its amazing how much better my quality of life is in Seattle since I have left the cam, i am still rather bitter (thanks to cammies doing too much damage) but like Puppy says, how many of them do you talk to anymore? Yeah he has a point and its time to let go. But its nice hanging out with people who are not into kiddie porn, adultry, and backstabbing. Makes me realize its not really Seattle, just the freaks in the Cam. The more i find myself not thinking of most of them as human (seattle only i might add still think that Portland crew rocks) the better off i am (coop excluded since i keep trying to get up the balls to call him and always fall short)
I definately fell into a new crowd up here, a lot more wild then the cam, but less drama and less backstabbing and less days spent sober so its all kinda even i guess. LOL I cant remember the last time i was sober for a week straight...i dont regret it, its my choices to make. But anything is better then the drama. This is so not a cry for help, its me actually liking my life for once since i moved up here.
Every moment i think of leaving, but its just not looking like its going to happen soon, but at least i am more comfortable with things then i have been in a long time. I miss my friends back home and think its time for me to go back to Tampa again and viva la ybor!
Other then that for those people who still give a damn, i really hope that things are going well for all of you...there have been alot of you that i have wanted to contact but really had nothing to say and i am assuming the feeling is mutal since i dont hear from anybody on here anymore.
Oh for those people who have not heard my darling x husband is about to become a proud papa so if you know him wish him luck. Many of you have heard me say that i dont believe there is a god in seattle, but i have been praying for that baby every night. I wont slander my x on here but many of you know the reasons i walked out on him and i only pray that the baby is safe and stays safe.
Other then that my kits had fleas for the frist time and it almost broke my black little heart...other then that i am kitty sitting this weekend for Rhiow, Bella, Squeeky (aka kiki) and Togs and the evil deamon kitty Waverly. Its in the 90's up here and Waves is expressing her hours of discontent by drawing blood, ironically Bella who is normally the bitchy cat of the house is being all snuggly with me.
Heat does strange things. But for the frist time in Seattle i am comfortable.
This shall last till about 3 pm today
after that i will have a tattoo on my spine
i am enjoying what bits of comfort i can find :)