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I remember when you took me to the cemetery because no one else would. I remember when you wanted to come with me but I told you to stay in your car because I didn’t want you to have to watch me cry. I remember you asking if he would have liked you. I remember telling you yes, but if he didn’t it didn’t matter. I remember all the times I compared you to everyone else. I remember when I watched you look at everyone else and got jealous.
I remember comparing myself to everyone else. I remember being able to put up a façade, I can’t now. I was always honest about that with most people. When someone said I seemed confident, I told them I was just good at playing pretend. I have never had confidence.
I remember Michigan. I remember what a miserable time you had. I remember thinking you just didn’t like it, when I really just drank too much and freaked out about my dad.
I remember knowing that if you were going to leave, you were going to leave…..
I remember comparing myself to everyone else. I remember being able to put up a façade, I can’t now. I was always honest about that with most people. When someone said I seemed confident, I told them I was just good at playing pretend. I have never had confidence.
I remember Michigan. I remember what a miserable time you had. I remember thinking you just didn’t like it, when I really just drank too much and freaked out about my dad.
I remember knowing that if you were going to leave, you were going to leave…..