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He knew what he was doing. He hid what he was doing for exactly that reason. It wasn't honest, it wasn't something to be proud of. I don't want to be that. I have done plenty not to be proud of, and I do still regret a lot of it, but I'm not going to hide it anymore.
I don't want to be seen as a two-faced fake because I'm insecure. I can deal with people knowing I'm fucked up because I am. I can't really think of anyone who has been in my situation that isn't.
I didn't make him overdose and if I ever chose to do something that stupid and rash there isn't a single person who should apologize.
I won't keep trying to fix everyone else because they are happy with themselves for a reason and I do see those reasons whether it seems like it or not.
I have to work on finding a reason to be happy with myself aside from trying to be selfless. I wanted to do everything for everyone I've done anything for, I just don't spend as much time wondering what I should be doing for myself as I should. Although I'm sure it seems that I do.
There is no one in my life that I don't want in it, but right now I'm not sure what to do with it.
I don't want to be seen as a two-faced fake because I'm insecure. I can deal with people knowing I'm fucked up because I am. I can't really think of anyone who has been in my situation that isn't.
I didn't make him overdose and if I ever chose to do something that stupid and rash there isn't a single person who should apologize.
I won't keep trying to fix everyone else because they are happy with themselves for a reason and I do see those reasons whether it seems like it or not.
I have to work on finding a reason to be happy with myself aside from trying to be selfless. I wanted to do everything for everyone I've done anything for, I just don't spend as much time wondering what I should be doing for myself as I should. Although I'm sure it seems that I do.
There is no one in my life that I don't want in it, but right now I'm not sure what to do with it.