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[dollheartrock]

I feel the grip of someone's raging jealousy. I tried honesty. I tried following the "rules" that were set up so no one would get hurt. Sorry I wanted to be friends, not some "booty call" or anything. I hooked up with someone else, but I'm not your fucking girlfriend, I'm not just a hook-up buddy, so why does it matter? I'm not tied down to anything. This was discussed, so why it is some big shock? I was honest as well which I am proud of being because I don't want to hurt anybody anymore. I was thinking today about how happy I am to finally be single, so I don't want this bullshit I've been happy to have escaped from still lingering around. You invite yourself over, and I'm thinking okay, sure come over and hang out, whatever. You call me every day making it seem like you have nothing better to do so don't tell me you've "wasted your time". The only excuse you'd have is if we were in a relationship, which we are not. It was discussed to avoid confusion, so why don't you stick to that? Please don't take your insecurities out on me. If you're jealous of some other guy, why didn't you point out that you would have a problem with that? I knew you had done things with other girls while were were seeing each other, and you even told me you were seeing someone in Vancouver. I don't appreciate this nasty jealous attitude and do not deserve it, and hate that I'm feeling affected by your behaviour. On another note I'm sick of hanging around people with insecurities, bad energy, just overall issues. I try to be helpful to others, and am usually drawn towards people who are depressed, etc, because I think I can make them feel happy or something. It's all just pulling me down.

Anyways, my new place is pretty cool. It's clean now, a little bit more organized, and I don't have roommates! Good things in that department...