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I'm a pointless human being who just does everything the wrong way and is of no benefit to the world or to anyone. I'm a jealous, needy doormat who selfishly puts the blame on others and is constantly feeling at her wit's end while clutching to others, trying to make them happy while all along fucking everything up while just digging a hole rather than making progress. I have made no progress, no improvements, nothing, zilch, I just float about every day like a useless human, the kind I make fun of. I think I'm so smart, but really I'm worse than all those trashy people out there that I put down. At least they do something with their lives, even if it's something stupid like going to church. Talk - Action = 0. Right? Right. I have no guts. I'm bitter and angry and have mean things twisted inside my brain and am constantly thinking negatively about everything and everyone. I'm always paranoid and jealous and insecure and I don't know how to make it stop. It's always been there. Sorry I'm fucked in the head. SORRY. It's not like I want to be. Do normal people cry on their days off?