never gonna give it up...
"girls are socialized to want an older man... take charge, have money, status... while they play hard to get and boys are taught to feel stupid, feel inferior, not as smart as girls. then hormones happen. a boy wants a girl. she plays hard to get. so a boy learns to talk big, develop a line, take risks, hit on women, not take the answer no. hit on younger women, go for status jobs... and how do women handle men like this? they get more hostile, more aloof, they wear high heels, they diet too much. they hate themselves and they blame the men! the men hate them. it's a vicious circle. it's a vicious circle." -constantine (max), big love
it's really terrible to like someone so much... and then nothing happens... partially because of you, partially because of lack of interest, partially partially partially whatever... and you end up hating them... to the death. and they give you pain and you wish they would die and you would never have to see them again, hear them talk, see their smile... just have them wiped off the face of the earth. that's not love anymore. that's not wanting anymore. that's an incredible tragedy. and the worst thing is... who is to blame for all this? he didn't do anything. but maybe that's the point? but i didn't do anything either. i don't want to blame myself though because then that would lead to a huge drop in self esteem... but just look at what's bolded above. what does that mean? and the fact that it's him who says those lines, well... i don't even know what to do with that. twist of fucking fate, huh.
i don't wanna try anymore. why should i? i just get nothing after giving my entire self. i'm exhausted. i want out.
it's really terrible to like someone so much... and then nothing happens... partially because of you, partially because of lack of interest, partially partially partially whatever... and you end up hating them... to the death. and they give you pain and you wish they would die and you would never have to see them again, hear them talk, see their smile... just have them wiped off the face of the earth. that's not love anymore. that's not wanting anymore. that's an incredible tragedy. and the worst thing is... who is to blame for all this? he didn't do anything. but maybe that's the point? but i didn't do anything either. i don't want to blame myself though because then that would lead to a huge drop in self esteem... but just look at what's bolded above. what does that mean? and the fact that it's him who says those lines, well... i don't even know what to do with that. twist of fucking fate, huh.
i don't wanna try anymore. why should i? i just get nothing after giving my entire self. i'm exhausted. i want out.