Possible fic: Hear Me Now
So no, this isn't a fic but I have a budding idea that I just need to get out and let it develop from there. This is the short summary of what I HOPE will be my next multi-chapter fic, tentatively titled "Hear Me Now".
Summary: Upon hearing Reid tell him that he loves him, Luke freezes up. He does more than freeze up - he shuts down, and he doesn't know why. He's not in love with Noah anymore - he knows that much for sure. He's falling in love with Reid - he knows that for sure, too. But to actually hear the words come out of Reid's mouth, so genuine, so intense, so full of want and need and desire and truth - it scared Luke. When Luke was with Noah, he was the one in charge even though he had always wished that they had a more equal partnership. He was always the one to say 'I love you'. He was always the one to suggest moving further in the relationship, always the one more passionate. With Reid though... where Reid didn't equal him in their relationship he surpassed him. He quietly took charge and Luke was happy to let him do so. Now it seemed so intimidating. It felt so intimidating. Luke didn't like feeling intimidated. He needed to regain control.
So - he ran. Like a stupid, foolish child who couldn't handle growing up, he ran away. He ran away from Reid, he ran away from his family - he ran away from Oakdale and headed to New York. He began writing classes even though his muse was miles away and probably hated him. He bought an apartment and tried his best to not think about the apartment he had shared with Reid - the smell of his aftershave on the couch pillows, the mess on the kitchen table that always greeted Luke when he came home from work.
After a year, he had enough of city life. He missed home. He missed his brother and sisters. He missed the hell out of Reid. Even at the worst, if Reid never wanted to speak to him - he could still have the chance to get a whiff of his fresh, clean scent as he passed him at Java, or get a glance when they sat in board meetings together. He didn't know what awaited him at home, but after a year filled with nothing but regret, he wasn't afraid.
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This is inspired by and will be completely based off the new Secondhand Serenade song, "Hear Me Now", which I give full and utter credit to for sparking the idea. It's a duet so I have it posted as Luke's voice/Reid's voice Lyrics:
Luke:
I left everything behind me
Searching for the strength I thought I
Had inside me
Left you behind
So lonely
Praying for the day that you would somehow find me
I was young
Reid:
You were wrong
Luke:
But I tried
Reid:
I was strong
And the years that I have lost are all I see
Luke:
All I can say
Is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid
Reid:
I lost all faith
Inside me
Still I find myself without the will to
Free me from you
I'm a slave
Unhappy
Wanting oh so much for you to someday
See me
Tell me how
Luke:
I want to
Reid:
Say it loud
Luke:
I need you
To be the one that catches all my dreams
Hear me now
All I can say
Is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid
Anymore
I'm tired of sleeping
Alone I've been grieving
The life that I gave up to feel alive
I want to feel alive
I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not afraid anymore
I want to feel alive, I want to feel alive
I want to feel, I need to feel
I want to feel alive
Hold on tight
Let's make this right
Take me, make me
Feel alive tonight
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The duet-ness of it makes more sense if you listen to it, lol, but hopefully that made some sense.
So... yeah. I just had to get that out. We'll see where it goes from here!
Lyrics are from: http://lyricsmusicvideo.blogspot.com/2010/08/secondhand-serenade-hear-me-now-lyrics.html#ixzz0wBAhHAqR
Summary: Upon hearing Reid tell him that he loves him, Luke freezes up. He does more than freeze up - he shuts down, and he doesn't know why. He's not in love with Noah anymore - he knows that much for sure. He's falling in love with Reid - he knows that for sure, too. But to actually hear the words come out of Reid's mouth, so genuine, so intense, so full of want and need and desire and truth - it scared Luke. When Luke was with Noah, he was the one in charge even though he had always wished that they had a more equal partnership. He was always the one to say 'I love you'. He was always the one to suggest moving further in the relationship, always the one more passionate. With Reid though... where Reid didn't equal him in their relationship he surpassed him. He quietly took charge and Luke was happy to let him do so. Now it seemed so intimidating. It felt so intimidating. Luke didn't like feeling intimidated. He needed to regain control.
So - he ran. Like a stupid, foolish child who couldn't handle growing up, he ran away. He ran away from Reid, he ran away from his family - he ran away from Oakdale and headed to New York. He began writing classes even though his muse was miles away and probably hated him. He bought an apartment and tried his best to not think about the apartment he had shared with Reid - the smell of his aftershave on the couch pillows, the mess on the kitchen table that always greeted Luke when he came home from work.
After a year, he had enough of city life. He missed home. He missed his brother and sisters. He missed the hell out of Reid. Even at the worst, if Reid never wanted to speak to him - he could still have the chance to get a whiff of his fresh, clean scent as he passed him at Java, or get a glance when they sat in board meetings together. He didn't know what awaited him at home, but after a year filled with nothing but regret, he wasn't afraid.
---
This is inspired by and will be completely based off the new Secondhand Serenade song, "Hear Me Now", which I give full and utter credit to for sparking the idea. It's a duet so I have it posted as Luke's voice/Reid's voice Lyrics:
Luke:
I left everything behind me
Searching for the strength I thought I
Had inside me
Left you behind
So lonely
Praying for the day that you would somehow find me
I was young
Reid:
You were wrong
Luke:
But I tried
Reid:
I was strong
And the years that I have lost are all I see
Luke:
All I can say
Is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid
Reid:
I lost all faith
Inside me
Still I find myself without the will to
Free me from you
I'm a slave
Unhappy
Wanting oh so much for you to someday
See me
Tell me how
Luke:
I want to
Reid:
Say it loud
Luke:
I need you
To be the one that catches all my dreams
Hear me now
All I can say
Is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid
Anymore
I'm tired of sleeping
Alone I've been grieving
The life that I gave up to feel alive
I want to feel alive
I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not afraid anymore
I want to feel alive, I want to feel alive
I want to feel, I need to feel
I want to feel alive
Hold on tight
Let's make this right
Take me, make me
Feel alive tonight
---
The duet-ness of it makes more sense if you listen to it, lol, but hopefully that made some sense.
So... yeah. I just had to get that out. We'll see where it goes from here!
Lyrics are from: http://lyricsmusicvideo.blogspot.com/2010/08/secondhand-serenade-hear-me-now-lyrics.html#ixzz0wBAhHAqR