i'm currently pissed and using this to vent my anger
Dear Journal,
so i should be asleep right now but nooooooo paul had to be a fucking asshole and wake me up with a lecter and as soon as i was up fucking run out the door. I have just gotten asleep when he got here and now i'm only going to get like 5 hours of sleep before i have to be at work. fucking asshole. =D
and today was supposed to be a good day. i got a 23 cent raise. and a great review at work which is leading me to having more responsiabllities and more hours and maybe just maybe another raise soon. so my day although it was a long one was a good day. i was mostly productive at school and am making a new friend =] came home ate and fell asleep.
only to have paul come in and bitch that i'm the reason he cant go to school next semester. HE has NOOOO concept of money and is fairly well off he makes wayy more than me a month and is complaining because i have finally agreed to let him pay some of the bills. The past few months i have reluntantly let him help due to him not shutting up and me needing the help. now he keeps throwing that shit in my face. HE FUCKING OFFERED!? now he's saying that he has no money because of me? last month he helpped me out with 550 dollars due to him throwing 350 at me when my mom accidentally made me over draft and 200 on cable i only have because hes here(which he constantly says that i need to turn off yet bitches when i tell him to turn off the tv at night.)this month so that that doesn't happen again i told him just a flat 300 rent from him. my rents 560 plus 100 for cable another 100 for elect 40 for water etc. with him buying dinner most of the time(not all i may add i usually try to bring him food if i'm working late and hes here and at least a week and a half out of everymonth(if not more)is leftovers/i cook(cheaper)) so we probably pay around the same. ughhh it just makes me sooo mad that he asked to help and preaches that he wants to help and then turns that shit around on me.
sorry intermission thinking about it made me more angery so i had to call and be a bitch. not something i normally do but i'm pissed.
we shouldn't be together, hell i shouldn't be with anyone right now. this shit is stressing me out and has been for 3 years.
hrmm i think i'm going to go cut my hair =/ i need to feel refreshed
so i should be asleep right now but nooooooo paul had to be a fucking asshole and wake me up with a lecter and as soon as i was up fucking run out the door. I have just gotten asleep when he got here and now i'm only going to get like 5 hours of sleep before i have to be at work. fucking asshole. =D
and today was supposed to be a good day. i got a 23 cent raise. and a great review at work which is leading me to having more responsiabllities and more hours and maybe just maybe another raise soon. so my day although it was a long one was a good day. i was mostly productive at school and am making a new friend =] came home ate and fell asleep.
only to have paul come in and bitch that i'm the reason he cant go to school next semester. HE has NOOOO concept of money and is fairly well off he makes wayy more than me a month and is complaining because i have finally agreed to let him pay some of the bills. The past few months i have reluntantly let him help due to him not shutting up and me needing the help. now he keeps throwing that shit in my face. HE FUCKING OFFERED!? now he's saying that he has no money because of me? last month he helpped me out with 550 dollars due to him throwing 350 at me when my mom accidentally made me over draft and 200 on cable i only have because hes here(which he constantly says that i need to turn off yet bitches when i tell him to turn off the tv at night.)this month so that that doesn't happen again i told him just a flat 300 rent from him. my rents 560 plus 100 for cable another 100 for elect 40 for water etc. with him buying dinner most of the time(not all i may add i usually try to bring him food if i'm working late and hes here and at least a week and a half out of everymonth(if not more)is leftovers/i cook(cheaper)) so we probably pay around the same. ughhh it just makes me sooo mad that he asked to help and preaches that he wants to help and then turns that shit around on me.
sorry intermission thinking about it made me more angery so i had to call and be a bitch. not something i normally do but i'm pissed.
we shouldn't be together, hell i shouldn't be with anyone right now. this shit is stressing me out and has been for 3 years.
hrmm i think i'm going to go cut my hair =/ i need to feel refreshed