how can you lose respect for someone you love on occasion?
I don't understand how I do so many things wrong when I think I'm doing them right. I think I'm making the right decisions and I'm being smart and I even call to say I love you and I go out with friends when I'm not wanted but I still seem to do something wrong. How can I do what I want and not "give in" to people and also respect someone else's wishes and do what they want at the same time? It seems like such a hypocrite! I can't make anyone happy...not even myself. I want to have fun and not feel guilty for it. I don't want to lose any respect from the one person I love the most and who I respect. It's not fair that I get judged for doing something that I like and am responsible with. I could understand if I was cheating on someone when I do it but I'm not!! I have NEVER cheated and I never will yet I still get respect lost. I thought that you thought I was your better half because I do things that you are too scared to do and you were happy that I was doing it because I want to. But that feels like a lie now. Please tell me what I can do to make everyone happy...especially you. Tell me you don't lose respect for me. Don't judge me. Tell me you love me and don't say "I'm sure you do" when I say it to you.