decomposition.
it has been 39 weeks since my last journal entry.
currently, i am at my parent's house. i have to be up in 3.5 hours to go to the airport to fly back to indianapolis. this is going to be short, but i'm posting to get myself back into the routine of doing so.
i am going to make a few changes when i get home.
the only thing i can think to talk about is how disgusting i feel with all of this food sitting in my stomach. all week, eat eat eat eat. it's silly to me that i have come to a point in my life where i am absolutely BAFFLED that people not only eat a few times a day, but they do it EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL. full meals, multiple times a day, 365 days a year.
i have gained at least 5 since i've been here. i'm too afraid to get on a scale. i'm anxious to get home where i can be by myself.
expect a more proper, less depressing update after i've arrived home, done errands, napped and showered. i can explain, i promise.
currently, i am at my parent's house. i have to be up in 3.5 hours to go to the airport to fly back to indianapolis. this is going to be short, but i'm posting to get myself back into the routine of doing so.
i am going to make a few changes when i get home.
the only thing i can think to talk about is how disgusting i feel with all of this food sitting in my stomach. all week, eat eat eat eat. it's silly to me that i have come to a point in my life where i am absolutely BAFFLED that people not only eat a few times a day, but they do it EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL. full meals, multiple times a day, 365 days a year.
i have gained at least 5 since i've been here. i'm too afraid to get on a scale. i'm anxious to get home where i can be by myself.
expect a more proper, less depressing update after i've arrived home, done errands, napped and showered. i can explain, i promise.