never make someone a priority in your life
when you are an option in theirs
i think i'm slowly figuring out what this means. feeling pretty lonely at the moment, for that and a few other reasons. overall i'd say i am very happy with where my life is at the moment but my friends... we're not what we used to be and i don't know how to deal with that. everyone is different than we were a few summers ago but things were so much nicer then. not that everything has gone to shit, but we were lot closer and did more fun stuff together. now we're just angry and lazy and blah.
i've never felt more part of a group than i did then. now, not so much. but, again, i don't know how to fix this.
there is no going backwards. only inexorably forwards to the future. but live in the current. my shirt even says that today. it's a fish jumping in a waterfall and it says "live in the current."
i guess i need to get better at that. but is it still ok to feel lonely and, not abandoned, but somewhat hurt?
i'm gonna smoke a bowl now. this pot is so shitty, too. god dammit.
i think i'm slowly figuring out what this means. feeling pretty lonely at the moment, for that and a few other reasons. overall i'd say i am very happy with where my life is at the moment but my friends... we're not what we used to be and i don't know how to deal with that. everyone is different than we were a few summers ago but things were so much nicer then. not that everything has gone to shit, but we were lot closer and did more fun stuff together. now we're just angry and lazy and blah.
i've never felt more part of a group than i did then. now, not so much. but, again, i don't know how to fix this.
there is no going backwards. only inexorably forwards to the future. but live in the current. my shirt even says that today. it's a fish jumping in a waterfall and it says "live in the current."
i guess i need to get better at that. but is it still ok to feel lonely and, not abandoned, but somewhat hurt?
i'm gonna smoke a bowl now. this pot is so shitty, too. god dammit.