Private to Self.

[docisin]

Don't know why it should fucking bother me. It shouldn't. Ianto's a better bloke and would be a better father. I'd just end up like my own dad and fucking walk out when it was three. Or fucking worse, like my mum and throw all my hate and inescurities on it until it turns into a cynical bastard who hates everyone.

I wish I hadn't let myself fucking think there was a chance

Fuckit, I'm going to get drunk. It's better off this way.