Long overdue update
Its been a while since I gave anything of substance here so if you want to know how I've been doing
Events:
Turned 30 last thursday and had a party last weekend. shogunhb and shadowravyn came down for the party and we went to the PRF. It was awesome and we all had a great time. I was a little disappointed that several people didn't make down. But I was more upset that many of the people that live around here who swore up and down they would be there backed out and didn't even bother to tell me until I called them. In the last two months I've tried for 4 different get-togethers with people gotten positive responses and then get a complete blow off without so much as a "sorry, something came up". I spend a lot of money and effort on my parties, I hate when it goes to waste. It's enough to make a guy paranoid. Also while I know its kinda juvenile of me I was disappointedthat only one person on LJ said Happy Birthday to me. I know it makes me a hypocrite, as only ever post b-day wishes in other peoples journals, still it upset me for some reason. I'm trying really hard these days to let the petty stuff like that go.
Work:
Things have been slow lately, lack of parts, some lack of motivation . I still love my job, I have now been there for 4 years.
I'm still hoping to move to MA but I haven't looked for a job in a while, I just got too frustrated with it all.
The only downside to work is that I accidentally drove a wood staple through my hand with a staple gun this morning. Surprisingly it didn't hurt too much despite having the staple stuck all the way through my finger. The shock after I yanked the staple out was far worse. I'm on antibiotics and have my finger wrapped in gauze but I should be fine. Nothing important was hit.
Home:
Still having the occasional argument with my parents, house is being remodeled one room at a time, can't wait to get my bathroom back. The dog is happy and healthy.
Family:
My grandmother is getting worse, she had congestive heart failure last week and is now in a rehab facility for old folks. I'm not sure how much longer she'll last. I love her dearly but I can't stand to spend more than a few minutes with her anymore, her mind is going and its difficult to have the patience to deal with someone thats half deaf and senile at once. I can only repeat things so many times to her before I lose my patience.
Love life:
None to speak of. It's hard sometimes watching so many of my friends getting married or engaged. I feel lost these days, I was so use to being in love with someone, having an ideal to strive for. I did that for nearly a 1/3 of my life. It's a hard habit to break. but the world seems so flat without it. I don't want to still be in love with these people. That boat sailed, even if my heart wants to believe otherwise. But I want that feeling back, that energy, that willingness to strive to be something so much more than I am.
Social life:
I run a game (earthdawn, duh) and in another (rifts) having fun but wishing for more players. It's really had to get people now that fatcat has closed down. i want to get out and do more but nobody is around anymore, being consumed with their own lives.
That's my state of the Doc address for the year. Hope to see you all soon at the halloween festivities.
Oh and for those of you that didn't make it to the faire this year I give you the Sultry Sirens of Sin! (one of whom I was totally about to ask for her number but she ran off to her next event before I had the chance. She's first one singing):
Events:
Turned 30 last thursday and had a party last weekend. shogunhb and shadowravyn came down for the party and we went to the PRF. It was awesome and we all had a great time. I was a little disappointed that several people didn't make down. But I was more upset that many of the people that live around here who swore up and down they would be there backed out and didn't even bother to tell me until I called them. In the last two months I've tried for 4 different get-togethers with people gotten positive responses and then get a complete blow off without so much as a "sorry, something came up". I spend a lot of money and effort on my parties, I hate when it goes to waste. It's enough to make a guy paranoid. Also while I know its kinda juvenile of me I was disappointedthat only one person on LJ said Happy Birthday to me. I know it makes me a hypocrite, as only ever post b-day wishes in other peoples journals, still it upset me for some reason. I'm trying really hard these days to let the petty stuff like that go.
Work:
Things have been slow lately, lack of parts, some lack of motivation . I still love my job, I have now been there for 4 years.
I'm still hoping to move to MA but I haven't looked for a job in a while, I just got too frustrated with it all.
The only downside to work is that I accidentally drove a wood staple through my hand with a staple gun this morning. Surprisingly it didn't hurt too much despite having the staple stuck all the way through my finger. The shock after I yanked the staple out was far worse. I'm on antibiotics and have my finger wrapped in gauze but I should be fine. Nothing important was hit.
Home:
Still having the occasional argument with my parents, house is being remodeled one room at a time, can't wait to get my bathroom back. The dog is happy and healthy.
Family:
My grandmother is getting worse, she had congestive heart failure last week and is now in a rehab facility for old folks. I'm not sure how much longer she'll last. I love her dearly but I can't stand to spend more than a few minutes with her anymore, her mind is going and its difficult to have the patience to deal with someone thats half deaf and senile at once. I can only repeat things so many times to her before I lose my patience.
Love life:
None to speak of. It's hard sometimes watching so many of my friends getting married or engaged. I feel lost these days, I was so use to being in love with someone, having an ideal to strive for. I did that for nearly a 1/3 of my life. It's a hard habit to break. but the world seems so flat without it. I don't want to still be in love with these people. That boat sailed, even if my heart wants to believe otherwise. But I want that feeling back, that energy, that willingness to strive to be something so much more than I am.
Social life:
I run a game (earthdawn, duh) and in another (rifts) having fun but wishing for more players. It's really had to get people now that fatcat has closed down. i want to get out and do more but nobody is around anymore, being consumed with their own lives.
That's my state of the Doc address for the year. Hope to see you all soon at the halloween festivities.
Oh and for those of you that didn't make it to the faire this year I give you the Sultry Sirens of Sin! (one of whom I was totally about to ask for her number but she ran off to her next event before I had the chance. She's first one singing):
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