Mind is so scrambled
I have no idea where to beging in the journal. I know there is stuff I want to write but I have no order or organization of my thoughts.I just don't have the time like I used to have. Work is getting tiring. I'll be working more hours yipee! It'll be more money that I won't see. It's costing 3600 to get the car fixed and about 600 for the rental car to have in for at least two weeks. My paycheck was messed up so I'm short about 600. I finally went to four stores and got a lawnmower just in time to have it down poor while taking it to the car and trying to fit it in the car. Of course it don't fit in the trunk and it's heavy to lift by yourself. So after getting it finally to fit in the back seat of the car, there is nothing to do cause it's raining so that I'll have to cut grass on my only day off. Go me! I have been too tired to do anything for fun. I didn't even feel like going on a date with some rich guy, now that is bad. I'm now more nervous to meet a guy since I been shelled shock the last three guys. I been gaining weight, about 7 pounds so I just feel like resting more. the only good news is that the guy I like that I last dated before he headed to CA called. Even though he is older, I do like him. He'll be in CA for another month. I went to target and bought 4 square dishes to remind me that I need to focus on getting out of the condo and into my own life. It's hard to do it when you are broke. The only thing I focus on now is work. I have to write a training manuel in my spare time at work, which is barely none. I might have another job to add to the tutoring, registration, GED, and weekend coordinator. they think they want me to help sponsor the college's GLBT club. they finally got approved of a budget this year and they need help. They are planning to have John Olgden speak on National coming out day. I hope all of you can come out for that. I'm a sucker so I said I would help and I'll be a cosponsor which means I'll get paid a small amount of money from the college. Fuck more work. At work during my break, I have been reading children's book. Junie B Jonse! It makes you ponder about the first grade and how everything was so simple back then and that you'll never get to go back that each day more responsibilities fall into your lap.