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When is enough, enough?
I'm sitting here staring at the blood spots all over my arms. I keep running my tongue over my chipped tooth. I feel like I'm not really worth this drama.
My Grams was diagnosed with Leukemia on August 17th and she died on August 22nd. Three days before that my grandfather died. Fast-forward to this past Thursday... Billy's cousin, Steve, passed away at 2:20 a.m. I'd never seen anyone die, until then. He was 20 years old... he died from the same disease that killed my grandmother, and both of them died within days of diagnoses. I remember standing in the hospital room, watching the heart monitor count down. I felt an interconnectedness to Billy's family that I have never felt before.
But, is that worth staying around for? Tonight, Billy's cousin told me that she called off her engagement only 5 months before the marriage, and after she told me her story, I felt that she made the best decision. It bothers me that calling off our engagement seems to be the best decision to me.
My entire body hurts. My tooth is chipped. I have dried blood all over my arms. My back is in extreme pain and my lips are covered in crusted blood. Why am I still here?
When is enough, enough?
I'm sitting here staring at the blood spots all over my arms. I keep running my tongue over my chipped tooth. I feel like I'm not really worth this drama.
My Grams was diagnosed with Leukemia on August 17th and she died on August 22nd. Three days before that my grandfather died. Fast-forward to this past Thursday... Billy's cousin, Steve, passed away at 2:20 a.m. I'd never seen anyone die, until then. He was 20 years old... he died from the same disease that killed my grandmother, and both of them died within days of diagnoses. I remember standing in the hospital room, watching the heart monitor count down. I felt an interconnectedness to Billy's family that I have never felt before.
But, is that worth staying around for? Tonight, Billy's cousin told me that she called off her engagement only 5 months before the marriage, and after she told me her story, I felt that she made the best decision. It bothers me that calling off our engagement seems to be the best decision to me.
My entire body hurts. My tooth is chipped. I have dried blood all over my arms. My back is in extreme pain and my lips are covered in crusted blood. Why am I still here?
When is enough, enough?