aaaaaaahhhhh
Life sucks a big one!!!!!!!!!! When do i hit rock bottom? This is getting fucking rediculous. Its just one kick in the ass after another. Well anyways, i went to court yesterday and got the court date rescheduled. That was alot off of my shoulders. The day was looking like it would turn out to be a pretty good day. Well that all changed when my mother came and told me that there was a cop looking for me at the front door. And i feel sorry for her cause that wasnt the first time or even the second. I stopped counting. Anyways the cop gave me some papers and explained to me that i was getting indicted for a felony, and again not the first felony i have faced but definately didnt want another. So now i have another problem on my big ass plate of bullshit to deal with. I just cant win. I hate having feelings of not wanting to be here anymore but the only thing that is going good in my life is Rachel. If i didnt have her, i'm not sure i would still be on this piece of shit we call a planet. She is the only thing that keeps me grounded. And i love her so much for that. She means everything to me. And it is the best feeling in the world to know in my heart that she is the one for me. To be with somebody and have no want to be with anyone else is a feeling that i cant explain with words or anything at that. But i plan to show her. Show her that she means everything to me and so much more. Thats all for now because i do believe i will go do some comfort eating. Damn that sounds like something a women would say. Oh well, fuck anybody that has a problem with that. And if anybody does have a problem with it, its definately not the time to fuck with me. I feel like a ticking time bomb. Bye for now.