Crossroads
I've always known, somewhere in the back of my mind that when I took this job, it wasn't going to be permanent. If I really wanted to pursue what I started in undergrad, I knew at some point that I'd have to go back to school. Of course, after awhile I started to get lazy and generally fond of getting a paycheck for not really doing a whole lot. I've never been one of those people, who have known what they wanted to do since childhood. I had the usual dreams of being rich and famous simply because. So I graduated, got a job, and settled.
Well, the thing is, I think I've finally hit that wall, or that cliff, or whatever you want to call it. But I don't want to do this anymore. My job is a job, sure, but it doesn't exactly offer any upward mobility, and even if it did, would I want to work in medical administration my whole life? I didn't spend 4 years busting my ass to do this. Not that I'm slighting anyone who has these kinds of jobs, because believe me it takes a great deal of strength to deal with the sick and suffering, particularly the very rich sick and suffering. But this is just my job, it's not anything to do with who I am or what I want to do with my life. The problem I was having is that there weren't any graduate programs locally or otherwise, that interested me enough. Finally, I've discovered Kings College at the University of London, which has a whole slew of programs I'd be interested in applying to. So, it's in London, but its only a year (and actually less than one year's undergrad tuition at NYU) whereas part-time I'd be in school forever. For the first time, going back to school actually feels like a feasible option to me, rather than a passing thought.
I dunno, its my birthday soon and I'll be working here 2 years in June, and it's just not enough anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I suddenly got this jolt, like the energy to make decisions and start something else, and I'm kind of excited about it. (Even though both of my parents said I don't have the drive and aren't terribly encouraging...I mean really, what do I need encouragement for?)
So yeah. Time to make something new.
Well, the thing is, I think I've finally hit that wall, or that cliff, or whatever you want to call it. But I don't want to do this anymore. My job is a job, sure, but it doesn't exactly offer any upward mobility, and even if it did, would I want to work in medical administration my whole life? I didn't spend 4 years busting my ass to do this. Not that I'm slighting anyone who has these kinds of jobs, because believe me it takes a great deal of strength to deal with the sick and suffering, particularly the very rich sick and suffering. But this is just my job, it's not anything to do with who I am or what I want to do with my life. The problem I was having is that there weren't any graduate programs locally or otherwise, that interested me enough. Finally, I've discovered Kings College at the University of London, which has a whole slew of programs I'd be interested in applying to. So, it's in London, but its only a year (and actually less than one year's undergrad tuition at NYU) whereas part-time I'd be in school forever. For the first time, going back to school actually feels like a feasible option to me, rather than a passing thought.
I dunno, its my birthday soon and I'll be working here 2 years in June, and it's just not enough anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I suddenly got this jolt, like the energy to make decisions and start something else, and I'm kind of excited about it. (Even though both of my parents said I don't have the drive and aren't terribly encouraging...I mean really, what do I need encouragement for?)
So yeah. Time to make something new.