...and then...
this is the aftermath....
after one week of meaningless conversation and want... She came and visited me at school today. we talked for about three hours and it was painful and... full of too much truth really. I know that the truth hurts, but its not supposed to kick your heart out of your chest... I thought it would be alright... she wanted to see me, and i wanted to see her I thought, so she came, and the moment she walked through the door, it all came back and hit me like a ton of bricks... I missed her. And I knew it. It was too hard to see her today. Too hard to tell her the things that I did and way to hard to be with her for as long as I was saying the things that I said but at the same time feeling like I shouldnt. I'm used to lying. I'm used to not being complete with people and sugar-coating everything and every little fact about myself or how I feel but I didnt do that this time, I told her everything that I thought and felt without regret. I wish she knew. Fact is, I have never really wanted any one person, never wanted to be loyal, never been loyal, never wanted someone the way I want her, and in all those things, she ranks above and beyond anyone that was or is a part of my life.... and her happiness is my priority.
so now I'm done. And can only hope for her to consider me.
"And we all thought, it was the end, it all was over, but then again, we see, it will be you until the end with me, always, I will, always, love you.... always." -dave matthews band
after one week of meaningless conversation and want... She came and visited me at school today. we talked for about three hours and it was painful and... full of too much truth really. I know that the truth hurts, but its not supposed to kick your heart out of your chest... I thought it would be alright... she wanted to see me, and i wanted to see her I thought, so she came, and the moment she walked through the door, it all came back and hit me like a ton of bricks... I missed her. And I knew it. It was too hard to see her today. Too hard to tell her the things that I did and way to hard to be with her for as long as I was saying the things that I said but at the same time feeling like I shouldnt. I'm used to lying. I'm used to not being complete with people and sugar-coating everything and every little fact about myself or how I feel but I didnt do that this time, I told her everything that I thought and felt without regret. I wish she knew. Fact is, I have never really wanted any one person, never wanted to be loyal, never been loyal, never wanted someone the way I want her, and in all those things, she ranks above and beyond anyone that was or is a part of my life.... and her happiness is my priority.
so now I'm done. And can only hope for her to consider me.
"And we all thought, it was the end, it all was over, but then again, we see, it will be you until the end with me, always, I will, always, love you.... always." -dave matthews band