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sometimes I feel like Im living a lie. All I want to do is cry lately but I just can't, I make myself go on, just make myself live to the next hour, somehow I still make it. i don't know who I am or what I really want, all I know is I miss him and I hate being alone. Its the only truth I know anymore, is that I dont want to be alone, and when I am its only bad, I ended up being up all night because of it, totally forgot I took on an extra shift today, that was a disaster, finding someone, finally got to sleep around eight and got woke up several time throughout the day by my phone, managed to get some sleep but still could now be sleeping for another hour but just can't. Lately sleep has become my escape and now it doesn't even work... :(