eww eww eww
Boys ae the grossest ickyest..just eww. So last night Travis didn't know I was still up and I had already told him I was planning on sleeping in my room that night, but I hadn't told him I was planning on also saying goodnight to him AFTER I got off the phone with Lisa. SO I get off the phone, go to his door, see that light from the T.V. is still flickering so I know hes still up, I never knock unless its locked, and it wasn't so I went in. And oh my god! he had, oh I can't even say it on the computer and was well... eww eww eww.. lets just say I caught him. I know its tottally normal and natural and all but I can't help but feel one grossed out cause yeah to me its just weird, and two a little hurt cause we haven't done anything in like quite awhile here and I feel like hed rather look at other girls ya know... Im jsut tired of him at the moment and now I have to deal with him every day.. Im so stupid, I knew this was a bad idea and now Im kicking myself in the ass. And I started thinking today too. We haven't spent ANY time together lately even before Tom came along. I know it been like at least a week since he told me he loved me, valentines day to be exact AFTER I said it to him and AFTER we well, yeah... I feel like I dunno boring to him. Like why is it that a guy Im not even with can express it and my own boyfriend can't. I just feel kinda like Im resisting all these other people for nothing right now.. is that totally selfish? Its like, he hasn't done anythign wrong, but he hasn't really done much right either. Or am I just being a silly girl?