What is it?
What is it? That makes it all happen? What is it that makes it so that no matter how hard i fucking try, i will always be "the friend" and nothing more?
I got my new CD from Lauren(my sister), its SO AWESOME. I really love this band. their just so. great ^^ *huggles them all*
Probably going over to Nicole's today to just play UT with her or somethin, all i DO know is that i HAVE to stop by because she has the cords for my monitor RWAR.
Maybe nico's right about my mentality.
I always say "i finally found someone and then..." really shouldn't i be saying "yeah i started to like this girl but...." and on top of that. Yeah, i'm over elyce...over her more then i USE to be. I still love her. But i'm not going to let the fact of her ruin my day anymore. It'll take time. Nico said she read somewhere that it takes as long as you loved the person to get over the person. or with them or something like that. thats a long time O.o
Course, i've decided i do wanna fall in love again. just not now. i want a relationship. i'm "open minded" to falling for a girl. Before i was pretty closed minded. Liking a girl gives me a bit of a power over my pain in my heart from Elyce. It makes it alot smaller really quick. Its like a shot of morphine. I worry that maybe i'm likeing girls just for that reason. But the lastest girl i liked. I don't really think so -=/
Then theirs my past ugh. i don't even wanna go into it. so fuckign long. I wonder why i write all this and not private it ever. -=/ probably cuz alot of the friendsi want to read my lj don't have lj? >.<
blah. go get an LJ just so i can add you to my friends list and i can start making this friends only or something...*shakes fist at Viki and Matt and some other random people maybe that i'm forgetting*
I got my new CD from Lauren(my sister), its SO AWESOME. I really love this band. their just so. great ^^ *huggles them all*
Probably going over to Nicole's today to just play UT with her or somethin, all i DO know is that i HAVE to stop by because she has the cords for my monitor RWAR.
Maybe nico's right about my mentality.
I always say "i finally found someone and then..." really shouldn't i be saying "yeah i started to like this girl but...." and on top of that. Yeah, i'm over elyce...over her more then i USE to be. I still love her. But i'm not going to let the fact of her ruin my day anymore. It'll take time. Nico said she read somewhere that it takes as long as you loved the person to get over the person. or with them or something like that. thats a long time O.o
Course, i've decided i do wanna fall in love again. just not now. i want a relationship. i'm "open minded" to falling for a girl. Before i was pretty closed minded. Liking a girl gives me a bit of a power over my pain in my heart from Elyce. It makes it alot smaller really quick. Its like a shot of morphine. I worry that maybe i'm likeing girls just for that reason. But the lastest girl i liked. I don't really think so -=/
Then theirs my past ugh. i don't even wanna go into it. so fuckign long. I wonder why i write all this and not private it ever. -=/ probably cuz alot of the friendsi want to read my lj don't have lj? >.<
blah. go get an LJ just so i can add you to my friends list and i can start making this friends only or something...*shakes fist at Viki and Matt and some other random people maybe that i'm forgetting*