after reading what i posted i realize...i still love her.
i havnt ever needed to update about how i feel untill right now. ive never felt so bad in my life. she has moved on, and i thought i was gonna be okay with it, but its killing me. im still where i was before i met her, alone. it hurts to realize this, i dont know if its her i miss, or the feeling of knowing my heart was not missing anything. now with julia gone to collge and candyce leaving next week, i dont know what im going to do. im not happy with the way my life is going, so im trying to change it, ive always feared change, but i need it now, more than ever. i need a girl in my life, im just not me without one, and all my girls are now gone, or soon to be. they were my balance, i dont know what im gonna do or how im gonna do it. i just wish i wouldnt feel this way anymore. it hurts bad.