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i wont lie, i dont think what i did was a big deal. but the fact that it hurt you so much makes it one. it seems that i have done irreperable damage this time. and it seems that all i do is hurt you more than anything else. i always knew i did not deserve you, and now it seems like i am going to know what it feels like to be without you. im not the same person to you anymore. and as much as that sucks, there is nothing i can do anymore. all i ever wanted was you. in a heartbeat i would be yours, in fact jaimee, i have always been yours. there is nothing i can do anymroe accept to wait and hope this is something u can get over. the thought of being without you hurts, but when u were here tongiht it stil hurt because in your head you were not in that room with me. you dont know me anymore is what u said......i have never opened up so much to anyone person like i have you, but you dont know me anymore. this does not make sense to me, this whole situation has never made sense to me. but it was always ok because i had you, it seems that i have lost you this weekend...i dont think i have ever felt so alone. interesting