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I lied.
I lied and it bit me in the ass. Amanda read my lj, and my lies, and it bit me in the ass. I'm almost fucking crying but it's my own fault. Why the fuck did I do that? Why? I didn't really need to say that. Amanda isn't the fault I'm broke. I would spend all my money on her if she wanted. When did I become such a loser to think that money would make me happier than people could.Amanda read my entries and saw what I said... It's not her fault I am an asshole.. It's not her fault I wrote it. I don't think anyone can understand me anymore, not even myself. I need to take a break from using lj, its killing me. The real question I have to ask myself is, When did getting pity from ppl you don't know, become more important than getting love from people you can't lose.
Amanda,
since your reading this...
I love you and I'm sorry.. Please forgive me.
I lied and it bit me in the ass. Amanda read my lj, and my lies, and it bit me in the ass. I'm almost fucking crying but it's my own fault. Why the fuck did I do that? Why? I didn't really need to say that. Amanda isn't the fault I'm broke. I would spend all my money on her if she wanted. When did I become such a loser to think that money would make me happier than people could.Amanda read my entries and saw what I said... It's not her fault I am an asshole.. It's not her fault I wrote it. I don't think anyone can understand me anymore, not even myself. I need to take a break from using lj, its killing me. The real question I have to ask myself is, When did getting pity from ppl you don't know, become more important than getting love from people you can't lose.
Amanda,
since your reading this...
I love you and I'm sorry.. Please forgive me.