People are stupid
I've been thinking over the past couple minutes about how fucking stupid people are about love/people they like whatever. Like, they'd do anything to get their attention and/or be with them even almost stalking them and doing certain things just because it involves them and starting to like the bands they like just because they like them and do things they do just because they do them. I admit that I've done it but it was mostly in Jr. High and stuff. I'm not going out of my way to impress a fucking guy...especially change myself, thats so gay. I'm too lazy for that anyway. Maybe this is why I've never had a boyfriend. I've really been wondering why I haven't, and I've gone over different things...I know its stupid and seems desperate to think about that for awhile, but hey, I'm a loser and there's not really much to think about. In junior high I thought it was because I had hairy arms (gol) and I started shaving them, which was dumb because razor burn on your arms really sucks. Then I was like "perhaps its because I'm fat" but I see lots of fat girls at school with boyfriends, and then people tell me I'm not fat...only to make me feel better. Then I thought maybe I'm ugly, but I've seen lots of ugly girls with boyfriends, but that could be just because they're slutty and thats what the guy wants. And people have told me I'm pretty, but I don't know why. So, I've finalized that it must be my personality. I guess I'm a bitch, but most of the time when I call people names and stuff is because I'm joking, or they are mean to me first. I think my personality and mood changes too much, because I'll be sitting at lunch really quiet because I don't know anyone and I won't talk or anything, so no one talks to me...then go to 6th hour and repeat everything Madame Brooks says and make her mad and laugh and sing in an opera voice and act really silly all hour. But thats only because I feel comfortable around those people because I know them...and then I don't talk to other people because I'm so shy, so they must think I'm a bitch. That must be it. ahowiehf whatever
I went to a baby shower today for Suzanne's aunt, Meme. It was really fun. We played a bunch of games, and one we had to put a piece of paper on our head and try to draw two babies (shes having twins). Mine was stick people with diapers on, but Suzanne said it looked like butts. Lauren's was SO hilarious...she had tried to draw bodies and they ended up looking like aliens because one had two heads, but I dont know how...I almost fell out of my chair and I was crying and swear it felt like i was about to pee on myself. Later me, Lauren and Andrew went outside to play football. It was rather fun. We did this little game where the ball was "12,000 degrees" as Andrew said. We had to keep throwing it back and forth to eachother really fast and Andrew kept throwing it right at me really fast and I kept dropping it and I started laughing really hard that I couldn't even move, I'm such an idiot. then Lauren threw it to me and it hit my eyeball/face. Really hurt. Whenever i actually get hit by things, I dont get bruises. But then random bruises pop out of nowhere when I haven't been hit in awhile. what the hell?? this is so boring its making me sick. kristin gave me a yummy picture of Conor Oberst, that delicious lead singer of Bright Eyes. Like my shuga Robert Smith says, "everything you do is quite delicious!!" or like he's saying right now "i will kiss you, i will kiss you, and we shall be together" whatever you say, you yummy thing. what am i even talking about??
i've totally been representin' "Why Can't I Be You?" with my Robert Smith-wannabe hair lately. And the makeup. Bryce called me Robert Smith on Friday...I couldn't figure out if it was supposed to be a compliment, or a sorta insult thingie. haha. I wonder if its bad to look like a boy wearing makeup, wait...I'm trying to be like him, sorta...yes, his hair...sorta a female Robert Smith? yeah sure whatever. like silly Christina in my first hour said, "Roberta Smith". I like that. gol. I barely wore makeup before so people are telling me freaky things like "you look pretty" which really scares me. And they tell me nice things about my hair. I've gotten more compliments in the past week alone than I have gotten in the past year. I think thats sad. gol.
I TALK TOO MUCH!!! i could just go on and on and on because theres no one to talk to, so i'll write it all in here. i bet no one reads all this crap! oh well. i can look back upon it in like a month and say, "i talked too much then". AH! yesterday when I got home, I watched my Cure DVD then Monty Python's And Now for Something Completely Different THEN School of Rock, it was a great night. there are so many CDs I want to get!! But I have no money. I'd really like to get the Clash cds I don't have, I only have like half. they're so awesome, and I hate to say this, but I'm sick of listening to the cd's I have because there was about a 10 month period where I listened to them over and over so I know all the words and exactly how they sing everything and every little scream of Joe Strummer, even on the live album, its pretty sad. Anyway, so I want the rest of their albums, the other Weezer albums (i think there's 3 more), more Sex Pistols, more Beatles, more Ramones, the rest of The Cure's albums of course, pink floyd dark side of the moon, a Bright Eyes album, more Led Zeppelin...the list could go on forever. At holidays when my mom tells me to make a wish list, it is always mostly cds, and I NEVER get cds!!! This Christmas was a first, I got Queen's greatest hits and Beatles Let it Be Naked. it was rather shocking...buy me a cd
CHEATERS IS COMING ON TONIGHT!!! i havent watched it in so long. its rather funny, but it doesnt come on until 12. oh well. maybe I should stop going on and on about nothing.
BYE robert smith is so yummy and he sounds so sexy...i'm moving to england so i can marry some guy who sings and wears makeup and has that sexy accent...rowr
I went to a baby shower today for Suzanne's aunt, Meme. It was really fun. We played a bunch of games, and one we had to put a piece of paper on our head and try to draw two babies (shes having twins). Mine was stick people with diapers on, but Suzanne said it looked like butts. Lauren's was SO hilarious...she had tried to draw bodies and they ended up looking like aliens because one had two heads, but I dont know how...I almost fell out of my chair and I was crying and swear it felt like i was about to pee on myself. Later me, Lauren and Andrew went outside to play football. It was rather fun. We did this little game where the ball was "12,000 degrees" as Andrew said. We had to keep throwing it back and forth to eachother really fast and Andrew kept throwing it right at me really fast and I kept dropping it and I started laughing really hard that I couldn't even move, I'm such an idiot. then Lauren threw it to me and it hit my eyeball/face. Really hurt. Whenever i actually get hit by things, I dont get bruises. But then random bruises pop out of nowhere when I haven't been hit in awhile. what the hell?? this is so boring its making me sick. kristin gave me a yummy picture of Conor Oberst, that delicious lead singer of Bright Eyes. Like my shuga Robert Smith says, "everything you do is quite delicious!!" or like he's saying right now "i will kiss you, i will kiss you, and we shall be together" whatever you say, you yummy thing. what am i even talking about??
i've totally been representin' "Why Can't I Be You?" with my Robert Smith-wannabe hair lately. And the makeup. Bryce called me Robert Smith on Friday...I couldn't figure out if it was supposed to be a compliment, or a sorta insult thingie. haha. I wonder if its bad to look like a boy wearing makeup, wait...I'm trying to be like him, sorta...yes, his hair...sorta a female Robert Smith? yeah sure whatever. like silly Christina in my first hour said, "Roberta Smith". I like that. gol. I barely wore makeup before so people are telling me freaky things like "you look pretty" which really scares me. And they tell me nice things about my hair. I've gotten more compliments in the past week alone than I have gotten in the past year. I think thats sad. gol.
I TALK TOO MUCH!!! i could just go on and on and on because theres no one to talk to, so i'll write it all in here. i bet no one reads all this crap! oh well. i can look back upon it in like a month and say, "i talked too much then". AH! yesterday when I got home, I watched my Cure DVD then Monty Python's And Now for Something Completely Different THEN School of Rock, it was a great night. there are so many CDs I want to get!! But I have no money. I'd really like to get the Clash cds I don't have, I only have like half. they're so awesome, and I hate to say this, but I'm sick of listening to the cd's I have because there was about a 10 month period where I listened to them over and over so I know all the words and exactly how they sing everything and every little scream of Joe Strummer, even on the live album, its pretty sad. Anyway, so I want the rest of their albums, the other Weezer albums (i think there's 3 more), more Sex Pistols, more Beatles, more Ramones, the rest of The Cure's albums of course, pink floyd dark side of the moon, a Bright Eyes album, more Led Zeppelin...the list could go on forever. At holidays when my mom tells me to make a wish list, it is always mostly cds, and I NEVER get cds!!! This Christmas was a first, I got Queen's greatest hits and Beatles Let it Be Naked. it was rather shocking...buy me a cd
CHEATERS IS COMING ON TONIGHT!!! i havent watched it in so long. its rather funny, but it doesnt come on until 12. oh well. maybe I should stop going on and on about nothing.
BYE robert smith is so yummy and he sounds so sexy...i'm moving to england so i can marry some guy who sings and wears makeup and has that sexy accent...rowr