perturbed

[dizzydazzler25]

i hate memories. i wish i could pick and choose some and erase them from my memory entirely. because once they are pulled out from wherever they're stashed.. they make me feel utterly glum. the thing is, the memory doesn't bother me anymore, its numb. yet, im left feeling entirely depressed. just from remembering.

but the funny thing is

i need to hold on to the memory. i want it. its a part of me. i just wish it didnt leave me so sad.