You want to be saved, and don't yet realize that you can save yourself better than anyone else ever could. Very few people, save for iterations of the Bodhisattva, who are flung far and wide but number few, can or will save others.
I had this same problem, and probably still do. I read your posts when you're going through tough feelings, and i recognize so much of it from my own inner experience.
Let it run its course, and when you are finished feeling crappy, put it away and help yourself out of the muck. Start by listing and fulfilling goals: smallest first, bigger ones later. It takes time, mon ami. One of my biggest obstacles is motivation, so i hafta work on that some more to get going.
Not to get all swami on ya, and i hope i don't come off as a dick or anything :) I think you're hella cool. Like a robot unicorn.
The same problems keep occurring over and over again. So unless you want my paranoia to kick in and assume it's a huge conspiracy, the simple explanation is that I have a problem.
There's something wrong with you? How sad :( I hope you're ok. Geez I haven't talked to you in AGES! I suppose that's what happens when people use different internet chat or blog programs, they don't talk much lol.
Oh, wow. You still read my LJ sometimes? I hadn't heard from you in so long I had assumed you didn't anymore. I went on a purge of my friends list a while back, and pulled people I didn't think I was going to hear from again. Well, that's all fixed now, you should be able to see locked entries again, granted I can't say there's much actually worth seeing lately. I've just been freaking out over stupid shit.
I usually forget about LJ unless someone tells me she blogged there and points to it heh. So I was reading her entry, and then I hit up my friends list, and I found this recent entry on there heh. It's been absolutely forever huh? I've gotten really bad about checking up on people. Lately I just keep in contact with the people I post at the same boards with, and those that comment, and of course those on myspace cause I view my friends list from time to time and check up on people. For some reason I just never got into LJ and can't seem to remember to keep up with it.
You myspace?! Yuck. That's the lowest of low in the blogsphere these days.
Honestly, I only keep up with what I can watch on LJ, either because the person posts here, or I can get their blog syndicated to let me know when they update. It makes it so much easier. Also, since I'm willing to pay for the service, I can customize to make it exactly like I want it. ^_^
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I had this same problem, and probably still do. I read your posts when you're going through tough feelings, and i recognize so much of it from my own inner experience.
Let it run its course, and when you are finished feeling crappy, put it away and help yourself out of the muck. Start by listing and fulfilling goals: smallest first, bigger ones later. It takes time, mon ami. One of my biggest obstacles is motivation, so i hafta work on that some more to get going.
Not to get all swami on ya, and i hope i don't come off as a dick or anything :) I think you're hella cool. Like a robot unicorn.
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Honestly, I only keep up with what I can watch on LJ, either because the person posts here, or I can get their blog syndicated to let me know when they update. It makes it so much easier. Also, since I'm willing to pay for the service, I can customize to make it exactly like I want it. ^_^
However, to each their own.
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