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Cuddling with Shaun this morning, something occurred to me. Life is Bea-utiful! How does it just know exactly what you need at any given time? It'll beat you down like a red-headed step-child, and then hold you in its arms and kiss your bumps and bruises.
I was very sick yesterday and that carried on into today, so I called in to work. Well, it wasn't five minutes later when I received a call from the cutest boy in the whole world. He'd called me four times on Sunday, and I really wasn't expecting him to call me again for the next six months (that's usually the way it works). Anyways, he called me this morning, asking if he could come see me. He said he'd been thinking a lot about me lately. Naturally, I thought, when you've had the best, why settle for the rest! He shows up at my door a few minutes later, looking absolutely adorable, and I invite him in. We stay downstairs catching up for a while when Keyna and Aaron come home and greet him quite warmly. Shaun seemed somewhat happy to see them as well. We, then, headed upstairs to continue our conversation. We talked for almost two hours. I got to be in my happy place for about two hours this morning. It was fabulous!
We are NOT getting back together! I have accepted this, but is it wrong for him to come over and cuddle with me every once in a while? I know it sounds stupid and childish, but I miss just having him around, just seeing him every day, just talking to him. He's so very special. I won't get caught up in it this time. I won't allow myself to continue to believe that we can be together at the moment. I just don't mind having someone to play with my hair while I'm falling asleep. I won't get hurt this time. I'll just let it go whichever way it's going to go. I won't spend my time worrying and guessing about where our relationship will go. I'll just let it go there.
I was very sick yesterday and that carried on into today, so I called in to work. Well, it wasn't five minutes later when I received a call from the cutest boy in the whole world. He'd called me four times on Sunday, and I really wasn't expecting him to call me again for the next six months (that's usually the way it works). Anyways, he called me this morning, asking if he could come see me. He said he'd been thinking a lot about me lately. Naturally, I thought, when you've had the best, why settle for the rest! He shows up at my door a few minutes later, looking absolutely adorable, and I invite him in. We stay downstairs catching up for a while when Keyna and Aaron come home and greet him quite warmly. Shaun seemed somewhat happy to see them as well. We, then, headed upstairs to continue our conversation. We talked for almost two hours. I got to be in my happy place for about two hours this morning. It was fabulous!
We are NOT getting back together! I have accepted this, but is it wrong for him to come over and cuddle with me every once in a while? I know it sounds stupid and childish, but I miss just having him around, just seeing him every day, just talking to him. He's so very special. I won't get caught up in it this time. I won't allow myself to continue to believe that we can be together at the moment. I just don't mind having someone to play with my hair while I'm falling asleep. I won't get hurt this time. I'll just let it go whichever way it's going to go. I won't spend my time worrying and guessing about where our relationship will go. I'll just let it go there.