Stargate SG-1 | Carter [Jack/Sam]
Title: Carter
Author: Mercy
Rating: PG
Word Count: 318
Genre: Romance/Angst
Summary: He writes to her because he cannot show her...
Author's Note: Written for the "We're not in Kansas any more" challenge at stargateland.
Disclaimer: I own neither the show nor the characters. I don’t earn any money with this piece. I just do it for fun.
Carter,
I lost you today. You died, Sam, you died. For a moment you were dead and so was I.
Do you know this is the 13th letter to you? No, of course you don't. Just like you don't know about the other twelve letters I've written to you. They are all kept hidden in the secret compartment in my desk. I know it's dangerous to write them but they are all I have. I can't step in and save you before I save everyone else. I can't go to you and tell you how much you mean to me.
And you do, Sam. I care about you more than you will ever know. And that's why I write to you. I write to you after every mission that went wrong, after every time you nearly didn't make it. I write how I would have done things different to keep you safe and out of harm's way right from the start, how the only thing that kept me going was making sure you were alive, how much I want to hold you and never let go when we are finally on the other side of the Gate, back here on Earth. And what we would have done afterwards, when everything has been said and done.
Today's letter won't contain those things. Today the enemy was already here, on Earth, and inside you. And I didn't know it! Dammit, Sam, how can you even look at me? How can you say it's not my fault? It wasn't me who saved you. The snake did it, that damn snake. I wanted to scream, hurt, kill but that wouldn't have helped you.
I know, the next time I won't be able to hold back, even if you tell me to go, I won't. If you die, so will I. Never alone again, Sam, never again.
Until the next letter, Carter.
Jack
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Author: Mercy
Rating: PG
Word Count: 318
Genre: Romance/Angst
Summary: He writes to her because he cannot show her...
Author's Note: Written for the "We're not in Kansas any more" challenge at stargateland.
Disclaimer: I own neither the show nor the characters. I don’t earn any money with this piece. I just do it for fun.
Carter,
I lost you today. You died, Sam, you died. For a moment you were dead and so was I.
Do you know this is the 13th letter to you? No, of course you don't. Just like you don't know about the other twelve letters I've written to you. They are all kept hidden in the secret compartment in my desk. I know it's dangerous to write them but they are all I have. I can't step in and save you before I save everyone else. I can't go to you and tell you how much you mean to me.
And you do, Sam. I care about you more than you will ever know. And that's why I write to you. I write to you after every mission that went wrong, after every time you nearly didn't make it. I write how I would have done things different to keep you safe and out of harm's way right from the start, how the only thing that kept me going was making sure you were alive, how much I want to hold you and never let go when we are finally on the other side of the Gate, back here on Earth. And what we would have done afterwards, when everything has been said and done.
Today's letter won't contain those things. Today the enemy was already here, on Earth, and inside you. And I didn't know it! Dammit, Sam, how can you even look at me? How can you say it's not my fault? It wasn't me who saved you. The snake did it, that damn snake. I wanted to scream, hurt, kill but that wouldn't have helped you.
I know, the next time I won't be able to hold back, even if you tell me to go, I won't. If you die, so will I. Never alone again, Sam, never again.
Until the next letter, Carter.
Jack
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