Today, i found out two things
1. I spooked the hell out of my junior
So he said he literally afraid of me. Like, scared. All i did is telling him what exactly i expected from gastro consult. And he is scared.
2. BPD makes me suffer
It's like your brain is trying to calm you down, to reason with hungs but your emotion overrides it. And that's when you feel like a failure the most. You basically cant control yourself.