Me time
So, I just went out and spent a little over $100 on clothes and wine for myself. And I don't give a damn. I deserve a little spoiling right now.
I am fighting conflicting feelings about lots of things right now... some of which I actually can't write about here... these are a few I can write about.
Kirk has quit his job with the county and moved to Liberal to start his job there. His plan is to work as much as he can (he says upwards of 55 hours a week) and send money home to help pay bills and make the window debt disappear. I talked to him about whether this was a temporary thing and he said he didn't know... and all I know is... my libido is back in full swing and I haven't had sex in over a month... and now my source for that lives 2 hours away to work. And the strange part is... I'm not sure how I feel about that. A part of me is HAPPY to be on my own. A part of me feels guilty that Kirk feels the need to make more money. A part of me is completely indifferent. And the other part... is just really... horny. *sigh* This could get complicated.
Other things transpiring... well, I'll be spending a large portion of my free time at the theater once again... and that makes me very happy. I have friends there and we have a great time. And I keep telling myself the more present I am, perhaps the better my chances are of getting to play Lucy in J & H. *sigh* Is it October 2009 yet?
I am fighting conflicting feelings about lots of things right now... some of which I actually can't write about here... these are a few I can write about.
Kirk has quit his job with the county and moved to Liberal to start his job there. His plan is to work as much as he can (he says upwards of 55 hours a week) and send money home to help pay bills and make the window debt disappear. I talked to him about whether this was a temporary thing and he said he didn't know... and all I know is... my libido is back in full swing and I haven't had sex in over a month... and now my source for that lives 2 hours away to work. And the strange part is... I'm not sure how I feel about that. A part of me is HAPPY to be on my own. A part of me feels guilty that Kirk feels the need to make more money. A part of me is completely indifferent. And the other part... is just really... horny. *sigh* This could get complicated.
Other things transpiring... well, I'll be spending a large portion of my free time at the theater once again... and that makes me very happy. I have friends there and we have a great time. And I keep telling myself the more present I am, perhaps the better my chances are of getting to play Lucy in J & H. *sigh* Is it October 2009 yet?