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i havent updated in a long time. mostly because my computer is fucked up and when i tried it wouldnt post so i just gave up. but partly because there are no words to aptly describe what this summer, this life, feels like. half of me is just so happy right here. i get to see my friends almost every day, sit on my ass and watch cartoons until all hours of the night (thank you adult swim), miss my baby, and have an entire day center around the goal of painting my toenails a shade other than pink (still havent gotten that done! arg!) But then theres the other half of me. And that half...is packing her first box today. Today, i will take my shotglasses from the wall one by one, wrap them in newspaper, and pack them into a box that wont be opened until i am in my new apt., until im in my new life. Then, if i havent wasted all the tears i have left for the day, i will pack away all of my sweaters and winter shoes. Im not sure i have the heart to do any of this three weeks away, but i have to start somewhere, slowly. its heartbreaking, and nobody warned me. Why didnt anyone warn me?
In other news, my girlfriend is in a different city and can only call like once a day using the calling card i gave her, and i keep missing her calls and obviously she cant answer when i call her back because her phone is off and i havent spoken to her in like 3 days. this makes me extremely sad. i will not stand for being this sad. somebody give me cocaine NOW!!! ...or not?
im also doing all of my laundry, in an effort to pack away the things i do not need. it is at this time and this time only, that i have realized how much fucking clothing i have. its incredible. i cant even imagine how i managed to acquire so much shit. and you wanna know the worse part? it didnt stop me from online shopping last night. oh no. two new pairs of jeans and two new polo shirts from AE are on there way to my over crowded closet as we speak. i am a sick human being.
i got a myspace!!! SOOOOOOO if you havent already friended me and you have one...get to it bitches. www.myspace.com/ally44
ima go do laundry and forage for food. later.
In other news, my girlfriend is in a different city and can only call like once a day using the calling card i gave her, and i keep missing her calls and obviously she cant answer when i call her back because her phone is off and i havent spoken to her in like 3 days. this makes me extremely sad. i will not stand for being this sad. somebody give me cocaine NOW!!! ...or not?
im also doing all of my laundry, in an effort to pack away the things i do not need. it is at this time and this time only, that i have realized how much fucking clothing i have. its incredible. i cant even imagine how i managed to acquire so much shit. and you wanna know the worse part? it didnt stop me from online shopping last night. oh no. two new pairs of jeans and two new polo shirts from AE are on there way to my over crowded closet as we speak. i am a sick human being.
i got a myspace!!! SOOOOOOO if you havent already friended me and you have one...get to it bitches. www.myspace.com/ally44
ima go do laundry and forage for food. later.