I want nothing more than for these next three weeks to be a blur.

[diva_la_bam]

If there's one thing I seem to have to re-learn over and over again, it's that you have to "fake it til you make it"

I hate that saying so much.
I don't want to fake it
I want to be me
I don't want to have to fake my way through life just so I can "make it"
what would be the point of living?
I don't think life should be something that you just make it through
If you think that way it'll be over before you know it
Yet, I always find myself thinking, I just have to make it through this class, this test, this day, this week, this month and then....
and then what?
I'll be old and gray looking back on a life filled with memories of just "making it through"
no thank you.

But as much as I hate the idea
it can be useful over short periods of time
like now, for instance