I know that this will come as a HUMONGUS shock for most of you

[ditzy_dancer]

Okay, well, Tommy and I are on a break right now, I don't know for how long, but it was my choice. I know a bunch of you are like WTF??? but I decided that I need to do what's best for me, and I feel like not being in a serious relationship right now is what's best for me. I was thinking about it, about the whole spending the rest of my life with

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i guess you could consider this my final statement...

[anonymous]

i thought ive always been good. i was trying so hard to make this long distance thing work. mabye thats where i went wrong, trying too hard. but i do know this, you have all the freedom you want, ive always tryed for you to feel free, and if ive ever constricted you, im sorry. and it makes since, it really does make since for you to be feeling this way. any resonable person would feel how you feel right now. but all im saying is dont give up on me. dont loose sight of all the wonderful times we had, and all the times we can have together. and so what if we dont get married, thats a long way down the road and i agree that it was a little early to start talking about it. all i want in the world right now is for you to be with me, in my arms, holding you by a fire watching lelo and stich and drinking cool-aid, like it used to be. we can ditch the marriage plans, you can go wild, go to huge frat partys, get naked, and go streaking! feel free! thats what college is for! i never wanted you to feel like i was holding you back from that, and theres very little you can do to hurt my feelings, and i think you can guess what it is. i just dont want you to forget what he had, long periods way from people can tend to do that, it does it to be every time i go to santa cruz. but when i come home i wonder why i ever felt like like that. im hoping this is just a case of you thinking too much and youll come home, see what fun we have together and change you mind...but from how you talk to me about this, its looking pretty slim...and it hurts really bad. All im saying is you can feel free and still be with me, or mabye you cant. mabye im the one that needs to open his arms and let you go. i guess they do have that stupid cleche "if you love someone, set them free, if they come back, love them forever" the only thing is, if you dont come back...all i can say is that i will be sad, and i dont want to say that like im trying to keep you becuase you dont want to make me all depressed. well dont worry about it, you need to do whats best for you, and i need to be a man and exept whatever choice you make and be happy for you. i want you to find youself, i just hopped that i could always be there to catch you when you fall, hold you when your sad, tickle you when your happy, protect you when your scared. and love you. my whole life ive only been able to express myself through music, this being no different... "If the sun refused to shine, I would still be lovin' you. If the mountins crumbled to the sea...there would still be you and me..."

I love you with all my heart and soul, forever and always and unconditionally,
Forever your Tommy-Bear