By Fire Be Purged!

[disturbedraven]

Given the title, lots have changed in my world as of late. Since my whatithoughtwasokbutnot relationship ended abruptly, which I must add finding out your so-called g/f was planning on dumping you and talking to other men while you were working/class/etc, I'm rather pissed to say the least. Who has the fucking heart to let you stay the night @

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[disturbedraven]

Just to add, since this post has heightened my curiosity as to why this person spent the time to reply from my original post: Step in my shoes for a minute. Do you have a family of 7 moving back in with you unbeknownst over the summer b/c of "career issues"? Do you work a job where your supervisor is a bigger ass than what my post may seem to be, only to keep the high pay that it offers? Do you have 16 hours of class that is of shit that you have no idea about? Are you starting to moving farther and farther into debt b/c bills just keep coming? Things aren't that easy for me now, and I have to take care of myself before I can be with someone else. If you expect me to quit my job and classes so i can spend all my time with Maria so I could have made her happy, then open your doors to your abode since you care so much b/c I'll be living with you and mooching from you for living support.

As for the maturity portion I kept contact with her after she called me Thursday to a minimum for a reason. If you loved someone and thought things weren't in a shitty situation, then out of the blue you get a call that things aren't so great and that your partner likes someone else, that someone else being in the picture before this call mind you, wouldn't you be extremely pissed? I didn't want to hurt her, thats the last thing on my mind. It's no surprise I have a short temper and can let it get the best of me, but have I ever been hateful or degrading to her? Of course not, I love her more than anything else. I gave up parts of my life to try and appease her, I quit hanging out with my friends b/c she wanted it, NOT b/c she asked, but b/c I knew that she would much rather me spend my time being with her, even if it meant sleeping after a long 10hr shift at work. Wouldn't you be pissed and need to vent in some way, such as my journal entry from above? People can be meant for each other, but you know I believed in our relationship to twist my life around for her, b/c I didn't want to compromise what we had. I don't want her to feel guilty, I just wanted things to work. It appears that possibly outside influences played a role in the relationship outcome, as otherwise the 2 posts wouldn't exist.

What I question is why you care now? If you cared a damn about our relationship you'd have made an attempt to help since you're so aware of it. Why didn't you voice your concern back when things weren't so great, like a good friend of Maria's you should have been. Think about it, all you're voicing is your one-sided opinion about your FRIEND but not her FEELINGS b/c of your possible biased opinion about me? It's odd that you race to destroy something that you feel is a negative, but if you were friends you'd talk to her and work a way for her to be happy. I know she's hurt b/c of this, and I'm sorry that her decision brought that, but at least be a bit more supportive here. Is it the fact that we had a relationship bothering you, so my post agitated you to reply in a very fierce way? I doubt her and I have much chance of ever getting back together again, but with friends like you ( and the other person posting), I guess you'll make sure that it doesn't happen. Even my friends were supportive of Maria (unlike the above), they advise me to forget about it and I'll guess you'll say the same, but let me have 2 years of your life and I tell you to just forget it. I've mentioned my thoughts a few times already, and frankly drained what concern I have for these posts. Bottom line is I gave it 110% for this, and with support with such friends no wonder she's so resentful of the relationship. I hope you can sleep at night, because I sure as hell can't anymore.