By Fire Be Purged!
Given the title, lots have changed in my world as of late. Since my whatithoughtwasokbutnot relationship ended abruptly, which I must add finding out your so-called g/f was planning on dumping you and talking to other men while you were working/class/etc, I'm rather pissed to say the least. Who has the fucking heart to let you stay the night @ their place, acting as if things were "ok" and then take the opportunity to stab you in the back, severing the heart upon insertion? You'd think I'd have seen this coming, as many relationships do find that out, however when someone tells you things are alright and even being told they're alright, something like this just happens.
The above gives alot to reflect upon, however I've given it plenty of thought and have came to a few conclusive answers. Immaturity definitely plays a role here, any communication of such problems would have at least given some needed tension to address the situation. I guess I can blame myself for dating an immature girl, maybe my sights should have been on an older, more mature person that knew what she wanted, rather than one playing games. Sad ain't it? You'd think you could trust someone, trust up to the point of practically living together at one point, but the answer I get is "You're not what I want, I love you but I like someone else. We're done, and I'm getting off the phone now." What kind of breakup ends on the phone? Just makes me wonder how far into the cheating actually did happen, why she wouldn't confront me before I stayed that last night, why I had to be out of the picture all of a sudden. Every which angle you check it, I honestly believe that the little note of we're breaking up and then saying we'd work on it, that whole time was more to relieve someone's conscience. I hope that person realizes that they're a cheat, a disappointment, and most of all a lie. I never tried to compromise 'us' and you intentionally fuck me over. Thanks for compromising my trust with another female, apparently you can happily fuck someone over the phone and make everything seem happy with your partial pedophilic new partner. Just as what has happened to me and also title of this entry, time to dispose of all memorable items within my life that has any reminder of the waste of years I gave for a lie. I guess my message has been sent now, hope everyone involved is satisfied with their share of emotions. ~End Rant
Since I have no commitments other than school/work, I've got some free time to spare. (HINT: Kelly we need to hang out as you suggested) You guys can find me online on my S/N, as I'm chatting on there once again. Anyone that wants to hit up the Bobaflex show coming in a few weeks needs to contact me ASAP. I guess my well needed relief was by sharing my story, and I couldn't possibly ask this pain I've felt to be inflicted upon others. It's a shame that such stupidity I see is still believed to be the "right decision." I think someone needs to open their eyes and see what good things they had. I gave up my friends for someone, they didn't, and I know they played a role in this fatal decision. I have no regrets, however I know someone else does and it's just tough shit now ain't it. ~End Rant #2 that I didn't want to rant about
The above gives alot to reflect upon, however I've given it plenty of thought and have came to a few conclusive answers. Immaturity definitely plays a role here, any communication of such problems would have at least given some needed tension to address the situation. I guess I can blame myself for dating an immature girl, maybe my sights should have been on an older, more mature person that knew what she wanted, rather than one playing games. Sad ain't it? You'd think you could trust someone, trust up to the point of practically living together at one point, but the answer I get is "You're not what I want, I love you but I like someone else. We're done, and I'm getting off the phone now." What kind of breakup ends on the phone? Just makes me wonder how far into the cheating actually did happen, why she wouldn't confront me before I stayed that last night, why I had to be out of the picture all of a sudden. Every which angle you check it, I honestly believe that the little note of we're breaking up and then saying we'd work on it, that whole time was more to relieve someone's conscience. I hope that person realizes that they're a cheat, a disappointment, and most of all a lie. I never tried to compromise 'us' and you intentionally fuck me over. Thanks for compromising my trust with another female, apparently you can happily fuck someone over the phone and make everything seem happy with your partial pedophilic new partner. Just as what has happened to me and also title of this entry, time to dispose of all memorable items within my life that has any reminder of the waste of years I gave for a lie. I guess my message has been sent now, hope everyone involved is satisfied with their share of emotions. ~End Rant
Since I have no commitments other than school/work, I've got some free time to spare. (HINT: Kelly we need to hang out as you suggested) You guys can find me online on my S/N, as I'm chatting on there once again. Anyone that wants to hit up the Bobaflex show coming in a few weeks needs to contact me ASAP. I guess my well needed relief was by sharing my story, and I couldn't possibly ask this pain I've felt to be inflicted upon others. It's a shame that such stupidity I see is still believed to be the "right decision." I think someone needs to open their eyes and see what good things they had. I gave up my friends for someone, they didn't, and I know they played a role in this fatal decision. I have no regrets, however I know someone else does and it's just tough shit now ain't it. ~End Rant #2 that I didn't want to rant about