this is so hard
It's been less than two weeks, and mark his words, he's over me.
How did I get within five months of marrying such an asshole? And why, even when I know beyond all doubt that I deserve better, does this still hurt?
I fully expect him to be dating within a month just to prove that he can. I can, too. I've had opportunities. But I'm not there. I put a lot into this relationship, and I need to recover.
I feel like this was an utter waste. I wish I had broken up with him the first time he made me cry.
I know there's someone out there who won't treat me like crap. And I am so grateful for the support of my friends and family. One of the worst things I could imagine has happened, and I'm still here. I will be fine. Happy, even. I just wish there was a faster way to get there. I was so looking forward to this year, and now I'm going to be spending the better part of it in repair.
How did I get within five months of marrying such an asshole? And why, even when I know beyond all doubt that I deserve better, does this still hurt?
I fully expect him to be dating within a month just to prove that he can. I can, too. I've had opportunities. But I'm not there. I put a lot into this relationship, and I need to recover.
I feel like this was an utter waste. I wish I had broken up with him the first time he made me cry.
I know there's someone out there who won't treat me like crap. And I am so grateful for the support of my friends and family. One of the worst things I could imagine has happened, and I'm still here. I will be fine. Happy, even. I just wish there was a faster way to get there. I was so looking forward to this year, and now I'm going to be spending the better part of it in repair.