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It seems that when you observe someone long enough, without any real interaction from you, you can really confirm suspicions about that person's true nature.
I have to admit, I was recently pretty disgusted by multiple people, and it wasn't because I was in any kind of hateful or malicious state. It just happened, like a gut reaction - it is fundamentally offensive to me because of what it suggests about the person as a whole.
I have a problem with black and white thinking: I find it hard to like someone if they have even one undesirable trait. I have trouble understanding how it can exist simultaneously with something nice about the person; I tend to think that the nice thing is overshadowed even though I believe in the saying, "Take the best and leave the rest." A lot of the time, I just think that people make really stupid choices, and I have logical explanations for WHY the choices are stupid, even if I don't share them because I don't want to be hurtful directly or indirectly. I've had some experiences now that really make me feel like I understand a lot, but that doesn't make others more receptive to listening to me. People have to mess up for themselves, over and over, and sometimes they still don't ever really get it.
I feel like I have better friends in college then I've ever had, and I've known them for a much shorter amount of time. I get tired of fake people or people who can't just say what they mean or, even worse, bitter, hateful people who spew venom instead of getting help. I don't think those people really deserve anything from anyone if they're going to just lash out at people who want to alleviate some of their pain.
I want to let these feelings go, and I'm really trying. It gets easier the more I think about it just dissolving but then, it's hard when you think of someone also hurting a person you love. It's about then that you just want to scream at them for sucking at life and emphasize that you really hope you never see them again.
It's ugly, I know, but when I get where my feelings are coming from, it's easier to deal with them. I guess I'm just disappointed that people aren't who I thought they were and I feel like I might really be done associating with them... permanently.
P.S. It also helps me appreciate the relationships that really matter :)
I have to admit, I was recently pretty disgusted by multiple people, and it wasn't because I was in any kind of hateful or malicious state. It just happened, like a gut reaction - it is fundamentally offensive to me because of what it suggests about the person as a whole.
I have a problem with black and white thinking: I find it hard to like someone if they have even one undesirable trait. I have trouble understanding how it can exist simultaneously with something nice about the person; I tend to think that the nice thing is overshadowed even though I believe in the saying, "Take the best and leave the rest." A lot of the time, I just think that people make really stupid choices, and I have logical explanations for WHY the choices are stupid, even if I don't share them because I don't want to be hurtful directly or indirectly. I've had some experiences now that really make me feel like I understand a lot, but that doesn't make others more receptive to listening to me. People have to mess up for themselves, over and over, and sometimes they still don't ever really get it.
I feel like I have better friends in college then I've ever had, and I've known them for a much shorter amount of time. I get tired of fake people or people who can't just say what they mean or, even worse, bitter, hateful people who spew venom instead of getting help. I don't think those people really deserve anything from anyone if they're going to just lash out at people who want to alleviate some of their pain.
I want to let these feelings go, and I'm really trying. It gets easier the more I think about it just dissolving but then, it's hard when you think of someone also hurting a person you love. It's about then that you just want to scream at them for sucking at life and emphasize that you really hope you never see them again.
It's ugly, I know, but when I get where my feelings are coming from, it's easier to deal with them. I guess I'm just disappointed that people aren't who I thought they were and I feel like I might really be done associating with them... permanently.
P.S. It also helps me appreciate the relationships that really matter :)