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Somehow whenever I'm sitting around half conscious, I feel like it's time to write in my LJ. It's really bleak outside today. I wanted cold weather (sort of) and now I have it and I don't really know if I want to walk to class? I like being all bundled up for a while though - it's like walking around in a nice blanket. It's not fun unbundling though, especially since teachers start making their classrooms into ovens later in the year.
I remembered late last night that I have a test on Jamaica in my music class today. Do you know who Burning Spear is? I do! Hopefully I can retain that information for another 20 minutes, and then I'll know for sure that I've earned the nap I'll be taking when I return.
I was talking with Brandy yesterday about big mind (Mind) and little mind (mind) and how, for some reason, I feel like I shouldn't have a little mind because I need to be perfect all the time. This is a true story. I don't feel superior, I just abuse myself when I'm not living up to the unreasonable standards I set. Big mind is the rational mind that tells your little mind (that I imagine as my inner two-year-old, or my desire to do things despite the consequences/to indulge in trying to get things I shouldn't) to stop running around doing self-destructive things. It's not like I'm particularly harmful to myself, but I have some bad habits concerning other people that are the equivalent of my two-year-old knocking over an entire aisle in the grocery store of my brain.
I make a big mess, and then Mind has to apologize and offer to pay for the damage like a mental mom. It's not as bad as it sounds, I just have to be more observant of these processes and then maybe I can be preventing them rather than cleaning them up. Yay! :)
I remembered late last night that I have a test on Jamaica in my music class today. Do you know who Burning Spear is? I do! Hopefully I can retain that information for another 20 minutes, and then I'll know for sure that I've earned the nap I'll be taking when I return.
I was talking with Brandy yesterday about big mind (Mind) and little mind (mind) and how, for some reason, I feel like I shouldn't have a little mind because I need to be perfect all the time. This is a true story. I don't feel superior, I just abuse myself when I'm not living up to the unreasonable standards I set. Big mind is the rational mind that tells your little mind (that I imagine as my inner two-year-old, or my desire to do things despite the consequences/to indulge in trying to get things I shouldn't) to stop running around doing self-destructive things. It's not like I'm particularly harmful to myself, but I have some bad habits concerning other people that are the equivalent of my two-year-old knocking over an entire aisle in the grocery store of my brain.
I make a big mess, and then Mind has to apologize and offer to pay for the damage like a mental mom. It's not as bad as it sounds, I just have to be more observant of these processes and then maybe I can be preventing them rather than cleaning them up. Yay! :)