Family in a Bottle
I wish I could express to everyone out there what the last month has meant to me. I've tried so many times to formulate a verbal description of what this movie has done for me.... but alas, I have failed. All I can do is come home from these last few days, crying quietly. I cry from fatigue, from elation and the satisfaction of being a part of this, from saddness to know that in a week, this will all be over. In the past month few weeks, I have spent 225 hours with a group of people whom I've come to adore. That's likely more hours than I have spent with any of my friends or family in the past year or two. It's just been this overwhelming rush of emotions, and to be honest, it's very difficult to deal with. I don't know what I'm going to do when I go back to my "real" life. I've really enjoyed making "friends" with Tucker, Julie Gonzalo, Nikki Reed, Dennis Butsikaris, Haviland Morris and the other stars I get to drive around each day. I've enjoyed talking every day with people like Becky, Anna, Kasha, Mark, Andy, Josh, Peggy, Quiet Mike, Kathrine, Jason, Jinx, and everyone else on the crew. These people HAVE BEEN MY LIFE for the past month. I'm going to miss them all so much... I dread the day that I have to say goodbye.
To me, when I watch Cherry Crush the movie, I'm going to cry. I'm not going to cry for the movie, I'm going to cry thinking of what I was doing during each shot. I'll be thinking about the ones I knew Nick the director was happy with. I'll think of those 17 hour days that brought us closer together. I'll think of the day Nikki gave me a big hug, or the night Tucker handed me a beer, or the day Julie's dog Ebony popped his head out from the suitcase at the airport. It's almost like I've lived a lifetime of memories in just a couple weeks. The only way I can express everything I've felt is to cry. It's hard to explain, it really is. I guess this experience has been like having a family in a bottle. It's been this enormous event, with stories of wonderful people that I could share for a lifetime. Yet all these stories, all these experiences have been smushed into this little bottle of time, so small, and passing so quickly.
I'm tired... gotta head for bed.
To me, when I watch Cherry Crush the movie, I'm going to cry. I'm not going to cry for the movie, I'm going to cry thinking of what I was doing during each shot. I'll be thinking about the ones I knew Nick the director was happy with. I'll think of those 17 hour days that brought us closer together. I'll think of the day Nikki gave me a big hug, or the night Tucker handed me a beer, or the day Julie's dog Ebony popped his head out from the suitcase at the airport. It's almost like I've lived a lifetime of memories in just a couple weeks. The only way I can express everything I've felt is to cry. It's hard to explain, it really is. I guess this experience has been like having a family in a bottle. It's been this enormous event, with stories of wonderful people that I could share for a lifetime. Yet all these stories, all these experiences have been smushed into this little bottle of time, so small, and passing so quickly.
I'm tired... gotta head for bed.