this feeling is foreign
I've been feeling really depressed lately and I haven't been able to figure out why. Then I realized that maybe it's because I'm missing my brother.
Which is weird, because though we love each other, we've never been the closest siblings. He and his wife were home for the past two weeks, and he and I spent more time together in those two weeks than we probably had in the five years before he joined the Army. And it was nice. He was that big brother I've always kind of wanted, and now he's gone and that sucks. I'm trying to convince him to choose Texas as the next place he's stationed so that he's within travel distance, but I think he wants to go to Japan, which is not within travel distance unless he's covering travel costs. He seems really excited about it, though, the idea of immersing himself in this other culture. I've never been able to describe my brother as giddy, but when he talks about all the places he's been and seen... he gets damn close to giddy.
I'm so proud of him.
I still want him to come home, though.
Which is weird, because though we love each other, we've never been the closest siblings. He and his wife were home for the past two weeks, and he and I spent more time together in those two weeks than we probably had in the five years before he joined the Army. And it was nice. He was that big brother I've always kind of wanted, and now he's gone and that sucks. I'm trying to convince him to choose Texas as the next place he's stationed so that he's within travel distance, but I think he wants to go to Japan, which is not within travel distance unless he's covering travel costs. He seems really excited about it, though, the idea of immersing himself in this other culture. I've never been able to describe my brother as giddy, but when he talks about all the places he's been and seen... he gets damn close to giddy.
I'm so proud of him.
I still want him to come home, though.