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So I'm doing exactly what I knew I would do. I'm pushing him away. Let me explain:
So we were suppost to go to the bonfire/movie thing at school. And he and me as well have been excited. And then all of a sudden today he didn't seem like he wants to go. I said that to him and he goes. "It just doesnt seem fun." God, I got upset. Cuz A. I've been planning on going all week. B. He didnt seem like he wanted to hang out. C. All my other weekend plans got fucked. D. I'm already not in the best mood, due to getting about 4 hours of sleep last night. So yeah I just let that get in the way of everything and I told him I'm not doing anything tonight. So yeah, even though I still want to hang out with him I told him I don't. Yeah, I'm being so dumb, but I cant stop myself. I know what I'm doing is dumb and that I really dont want that to happen, but I just cant stop myself. :/ Seriously, I have a serious problem. I cant stop myself, as hard as I try, even when I know when I'm doing it that I will end up regretting it and yeah. Ugh, I feel like crap.
So we were suppost to go to the bonfire/movie thing at school. And he and me as well have been excited. And then all of a sudden today he didn't seem like he wants to go. I said that to him and he goes. "It just doesnt seem fun." God, I got upset. Cuz A. I've been planning on going all week. B. He didnt seem like he wanted to hang out. C. All my other weekend plans got fucked. D. I'm already not in the best mood, due to getting about 4 hours of sleep last night. So yeah I just let that get in the way of everything and I told him I'm not doing anything tonight. So yeah, even though I still want to hang out with him I told him I don't. Yeah, I'm being so dumb, but I cant stop myself. I know what I'm doing is dumb and that I really dont want that to happen, but I just cant stop myself. :/ Seriously, I have a serious problem. I cant stop myself, as hard as I try, even when I know when I'm doing it that I will end up regretting it and yeah. Ugh, I feel like crap.